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Jeongcheol- 4 Tequilas Down

(i want to make it clear that jeonghan isn't talking to the writer but rather talking to seungcheol when he says 'you')

Writing prompt: 4 Tequilas Down (By Dodie)

5am rolls around again and yet i still find myself longing for more from you as you start to leave. Why do i do this to myself? I find myself lost in a blur of love or ignorant passion.

I don't know who i am anymore.

The smell of tequila and a certain sourness lingers in the air between us as it starts to thicken; alcohol having been used so i didn't look like myself in your eyes. But why would i care? We are just messing around, nothing serious... And still i want to hear the 4 letters leave your mouth. False admiration and desire leave their imprint on me every time. No one knows how much you tear me in two, but i do this to myself so i couldn't let them know.

Seungcheol. The name of the devil but the lover of mine. The one that holds me yet wants another; you pretend to need me and i can see it. My body is just a chess piece to you, another pawn on the board. You have played your last game tonight. Deception has held me for too long, letting you go would be too easy. But i still find myself glued to my seat as i stare at your buttons being done up. Why did we let it get to this? No. Why did I let it get to this. Barely any words exchanged after your needs have been fulfilled should've been the last straw, alas i still let you into my apartment every time. The lack of communication was going to end now.

"Seungcheol." and with that all you do is grunt in response, "Look at me. Now." Fuck. Who knew i could be so brave? A steal glare was all i got in response as you slowly turned so our bodies were chest to chest. This is it. But i can't. No. I'll ruin everything with 3 words. But you are ruining me with every night spent together. "Stay, please. At least till 8?"

"Jeonghan i-" and just like that i collapse in front of you, i guess the weight of holding yours burdens finally cracked me. "Hey, hey, hey, don't cry please. Here," my face was now covered with the cotton jumper you once had on, "put it on. Its obvious we both need to talk so lets do that." Huh? For a second i had to process the words you just spoke. You were going to spend the morning here rather than sneaking off to a bar for seconds with another person? My sobbing became heavier yet quieter as your embrace fully surrounded me. Vanilla and the mixture of sweat and aftershave have never been so comforting until now. "Can we plea- please just talk. I have s- so many things to say." Tripping over my words was never a struggle until now, until i was facing the boy i loved with a face so sincere yet doubt-filled.

"I know i'm not your first choice," i start to regain my breathing and vision as i lift my chin to make eye contact. I didn't think i would meet your eyes so quickly, so intently. "i'm probably far from it, but i'm sick and tired of being treated like some seconds. Something to be fucked with occasionally and ignored the rest of the time." Your eyes started to shoot from corner to corner of my face, looking, searching for something to focus on. It just happens that they landed on my lips. "So yeah, please. Be straight up with me because i'm sick and tired of... THIS!" The last word being the one i trip on, but emphasis, due to the thought of him not wanting to be referred to as paired with me.

And just like that, i fall even further. It's wrong for me to fall deeper into you and your perfections, but i can't help myself. "I guess i'm a dickhead, yes i understand why you're angry. I've been 'something to be fucked with' before so i guess i know where you are coming from. But just know that i wouldn't keep coming back if i didn't want to be here but rather with someone else." My heart stops. Just like that. "Jeonghan don't look so surprised." you say this whilst punching my shoulder but pulling me closer.

"Kiss me. Before i start to think again Cheol." and you obeyed.

Four tequilas down,

Who gives a shit if we are messing around?

***Authors notes***

Sorry for this being so short, i honestly lost inspo half way through and lost all sort of good vocabulary, but i tried i guess! Give feedback please <3

and as always, you are loved <3