HOLD ON - [희승]

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Have you ever wanted to cry but no tears came out , so you just stare blankly into space while feeling your heart break into pieces ?

That's what I've always felt. Every day, my heart screams for help .

Asking anyone to open my cage and help me to spread my wings .

I want to fly, I want to be free .

Everyday, my passion for life is fading. There was a big shadow enveloped in me, it wrapped me like a blanket but it slowly choked my whole body.

It never stopped whispering words that weakened every single part of me.

I'm exhausted, I'm drowning, I'm devastated .

Sometimes , i just wanna go on a roadtrip with someone i love . I wanna get away .

Explore places , sleep in the car , stop a lot just to admire the view , try a lot of coffee shops , have a polaroid camera , take pretty pictures of han river , take a picture of me , run through a forest , chase fog , chase the sun , spend hours on a field to make a flower crown , feel the wind in my hair ,

I wanna make memories , i wanna alive .

I closed off all easy roads leading to me ,

But i'm reachable if you're willing to go extra mile .

This book is still not finished but I decided to go early ,

Please forgive me .

I can't hold on any longer .

My energy is absorbed, every day is like hell for me .

I don't pay attention to the world ending ,

It has ended for me many times and begin again in the next morning .

I wish i could throw off the thoughts which poison my happiness .

And yet , i take a kind of pleasure in indulging them .

I am forever chained to myself , that's what i am .

And that's what i must try to live with .

I hope i never get tired of the night sky , of the thunderstorms ,