• Before It's Too Late • [ Given RitsuMafu One-shot ] •

Ritsuka x Mafuyu One-Shot

POV : Satō Mafuyu

I visited Yuki's grave with Hiiragi and Shizu-chan without Uenoyama-kun's knowledge. I know he will allow me to visit Yuki's grave, but I don't want him to feel hurts because of me again. Uenoyama-kun is a good person, that's why I love him. Uenoyama-kun and I lived together since 3 years ago after graduating and had same university with Kaji-san and Haruki-san. But somehow, lately he feels different, he is more quiet. I wonder if it's because of university? Because I always see him on his laptop and rarely talk to me.

When I visited Yuki's grave, I couldn't hold back my tears. I hope Uenoyama-kun doesn't realize about me just visiting Yuki's grave.

I took off my shoes and walked to the bedroom then opened the door, "Welcome back," said Uenoyama-kun on the bed with the laptop on his lap. He usually hugs me when I'm at home. But maybe not today ..? Or is he not in the mood? I think. "What are you doing?" I asked.

"University"
Ugh, he's been answering like that these days. But I kept trying to find the topic, "Do you have a lot of work?" But he just hummed.

I sighed, took off my jacket and put it on the chair near me. I sat on the bed beside Uenoyama-kun and looked at his work, "What?" he asked, I was annoyed by his answer, as if he didn't want me to sit beside him, “Nothing, I just want to see your work, " he just hummed like before and focused on his laptop again.

"Is there anything I can help you with ...? I mean- your work-" I don't want Uenoyama-kun to be like this for a long time just because of his work, I want his attention too. Am I egoist ..?

" No "

Uenoyama-kun has always been like this since last week, can I do something for him ...? I want his attention. He rarely talks to me. I don't want us to lose communication. Is he hiding ... --- tsk, I can't say that because I'm still hiding about me visiting Yuki's grave from him.

"Mafuyu?"
I heard him calling my name so I turned to him.

"Your eyes," he said.

"Hah?" I wonder, is he suspicious? Does he notice my eyes? Are my eyes still red?

"Before that, where did you go with them?"

"Bookstore…? And café ..? " I answered carefully, he will get angry if I hide something from him.

" After that? "

"Hiiragi's house-?"

"Don't lie to me, you went to Yuki's grave right?" I was shocked, I couldn't hide something from him. "H-huh ?! H-how did you know ---"

"I said, your eyes. It's red. You were cry." He said then turned off and put the laptop on the table nearby. "Am I right?" He sat in front of me and I put my feet on his lap with Uenoyama-kun's hands wrapped around my waist. I couldn't see his eyes, I was too scared to do it. "Why didn't you tell me? You know I won't be mad at you. Come on, you're the one who said that if we have a problem we have to solve it quickly before it's too late? " His voice really does sound when he's angry.

"MAFUYU!" I was surprised for the second time, he raised his voice.

Tsk.

"UENOYAMA-KUN ALSO- !! YOU'RE ALWAYS BUSY WITH YOUR WORK!! CAN YOU GIVE A LITTLE AT YOUR ATTENTION ?!” I gripped his clothes tightly. We rarely fight, but today - can I say if I had a fight with him? We raised our voices to each other ... like ... I did it before with- Yu--

"Hng ..?"
I felt something touch my lips, my eyes widened, Uenoyama-kun didn't say anything and just hugged me tighter than before. We kissed, kissed and kissed. He's a good kisser, my negative thinking suddenly disappeared. I just feel his kiss, I wish time stopped so I can be like this forever, only with him. I opened my eyes a little and saw Uenoyama-kun, 'ah .. his eyes are so beautiful' I thought.

"Mmh- Ritsuka ......-?" I said while releasing the kiss.

"Sorry, I got so many works from university so I don't have time for you. I'm sorry, I'll do anything for y- "

" DON'T SAY IT! "
Is he guilty? I know I want his attention but- if he says that I feel like I'm being egoist right now.

"N-no .. this is university after all- I'm so selfish, sorry .."

He kissed me again this time. His lips tasted like blueberries which were the same color as his hair. I don't know how explain it, I just felt warm in his arms with Uenoyama-kun's lips touching mine, maybe my face turned red now. When we were in high school, he was always hesitant to kiss or hug, but now it's different. Uenoyama-kun has changed, I will always love him to death. I don't care if he will change later, I will always love him, forever. I love him as himself, not as Yuki. But .. Will he love me back? What if he doesn't love me anymore? Whatever .. I will make him love me back if that happens.

'Hey Yuki, are you still here ..? Uenoyama-kun is really a good boyfriend you know .. I hope I can talk to you again .. It's okay even if it's just my dream, I want to tell you how I spent my days with him. '

Without realizing it, I felt tears on my cheeks. Uenoyama-kun who realized it, he wiped my tears from my cheeks and I felt his hands on my hair, he pulled me and hid my face on his shoulders. His arms were very warm, even though it's winter. Uenoyama-kun has changed, meanwhile me-..

"Mafuyu, next time, let's visit him together, shall we?" he said, and I was shocked, “H-HAH ?! N-no way! ”

"Why?"

"It's not fair to Uenoyama-kun"

"What's that? Hahaha," he giggled, I think his mood is getting better again. " Stop it. "

"My works is really disgusting, what should I do to make you happy again?" He asked me.

"Shortcake, I want it"

"Only that?" I nodded.

"Okay," then he kissed my forehead, I blushed a little.
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///*I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WROTE LOL, MY GRAMMAR IS REALLY SUCK