Dear Darkness,
I fear you. I fear you most late at night as I lay in my bed. I dont fear death. I fear what comes after. After i die what happens. After i die will my life of been meaningless? After i die will i live on in heaven forever? Maybe ill be reincarnated as a beautiful creature big or small. Maybe ill just be stuck on the earthly plain. But what if after you die everything just goes black. Theres nothing but darkness. I think this is why it scares me most at night. Im scared to be left in the darkness. The darkness scares me. Im scared most to be alone. What if when i die im just alone in that terrible cold darkness. This is the reason i find it easier to sleep with a show on to drown my thoughts. I sleep best on the phone with the one i truly love. When im not on the phone or watching tv or listening to music im alone with these scary thoughts. Im not a child and yet i fear the dark but not in the way most would think. I fear the thoughts i have when im alone in the dark. I fear the thoughts of dying. I fear the thoughts of losing the one i love the most. I fear losing my animals that love me so much. I fear i wont wake up tomorrow. I fear most that when im finally gone no one will care. No one will remember me. I love to write and share my thoughts im sure many others often think the same. I know these thoughts are normal but they make me feel insane. Please forgive me darkness i know its not your fault youre a part of life part of the balance. This balance keeps the world spinning light and dark good and bad day and night. I understand the balance you keep but i fear you darkness and all the secrets you keep.
Sincerely, A
