Come What May

Untitled Part 6

He knocked on the door and waited for her to answer. He knew she wasn't asleep. He saw light in the living room. Regina opened the door after a while, her eyes wet from the tears she was holding back when they were talking. When she was alone, she could cry without fearing that someone might see her.

He looked in her eyes and for the first time after she came back, he understood how badly he had hurt the woman he loved with all his heart.

She was looking at him, waiting for him to say something bad for her as he always did during the last days, but instead of that, Robin fell to his knees and started crying, causing Regina to look at him speechlessly.

''I'm so sorry,'' Robin mumbled between his sobs and Regina couldn't move, not even an inch. She didn't know how to react. 

''Robin, get up,'' she said, her voice cracked at the sight of him, but he didn't. He didn't get up, instead he looked up in her eyes, his gaze full of regret and guilt.

''I've lost myself. I was terrible to you, I've said so many things and I didn't mean a single word.'' He started talking and Regina was looking at him with eyes wide open. 

''I know you probably won't forgive me, and you have all the right to do so, but I want you to know that I regret everything, and I hate it that I hurt you,'' he says with a trembling voice. Regina had never seen Robin like this.

''I love you with all my damaged heart, Regina, and I know I've been awful to you. I've hurt you so many times and I hate myself for this. I've missed my old self. I've missed the old Robin, the Robin who could make you smile, make you happy, the Robin you loved once. '' He continued and Regina couldn't hold back her tears, salty liquid was running down her cheeks as she heard his words. 

''I know I don't deserve this. I know I don't deserve your love, not anymore, but please find a place in your heart to forgive me because I promise you I love you with all my heart. These years without you, were empty. I didn’t have you, I didn’t have Roland. Only God knows how much I miss my son.'' And at the sound of his name, Robin started sobbing again and she couldn't take this anymore. She couldn't see the man she loved on his knees, sobbing and begging her, crying about his missing little boy and regretting the things he did to her. 

She would forgive him. She would take him inside, forgive all his mistakes, she would love him no matter how damaged he was, even if he believed he didn't deserve this, Regina knew that he did. Because she was like this once and Robin saved her from the darkness, Robin gave her happiness and love, without asking anything in return, he even forgave her when he learned that she was the one who killed his wife, and he still loved her after this.  

''Please, help me find my old self,'' Robin mumbled again. ''Anny and you deserve everything, you deserve better than me and if I was brave enough I would have left this town and I would have let you be happy,'' he said, as he wiped his tears and looked up at her. ''But I'm not strong enough to live without you, or our little girl. I can't do this again.''

That was it... Regina fell on her knees in front of him and wrapped her arms around his neck as Robin hugged her back, squeezing her so tightly in his arms that for a second Regina couldn't breathe. ''Shh... It's okay, my love,'' she says and caresses his head. ''I don't want to live without you either, Robin,'' she whispered and pulled him back to look in his eyes, and he was so tired, so hurt, his eyes were red and puffy, his features had nothing to do with the Robin she knew once, but she would bring him back. She would bring the Robin she loved once back, she knew she could do it. She and Anny would help him find his old self that Regina missed so much. 

''You...'' he stammered for a second, ''You forgive me?'' he asked with eyes wide open. 

''Robin, of course I forgive you,'' she said like it was the most obvious thing in the world. ''We lost too much time to fighting and crying about how fate brought our lives together,'' she said, holding his face in her hands. ''…to losing and finding each other again. I don't want to do this anymore. I love you and we will sort this out together,'' she said with a strong voice.