A dream come true (Endverse Castiel X Male reader)

Chapter 1

After 5 hours of cleaning out a hospital full of Croats, Cas and I finally drove back home. "Hey y/n, can you drive the slightest bit faster? I don't wanna miss the orgy."

Like, really Cas? We are literally covered in blood and that's what you wanna do? Get to an orgy? Damn, your priorities are seriously fucked up.

"Castiel, the ex-angel of the damn Lord, that's what you're so impatiently waiting for?'' I knew it would annoy him.

"Y/n, yeah yeah whatever. I know you're just jealous." Cas smirked.

I- did he just-? Well, I kinda think he's good looking? And that jawline, those eyes but he's just a dumb hippie now. I would NEVER do anything with him.

"You wish, Cas. You wish." I scoffed as we pulled into the camp. After I jumped out of the Jeep, Cas looked at me and winked.

"See you later." I stared at him, shook. Why did he have to do so damn hot?

"Uh, yeah." I gave him a thumbs up with an awkward smile.

I walked to my trailer and started to undress, preparing for my shower (which is made up of a Cola bottle with holes but it works). Just as I got my buckle undone, I heard a knock on my trailer door.

I rushed to buckle back up but Cas walked in on me in just boxers. I became flustered and embarrassed. "Cas, I thought you were heading to your orgy or whatever. Get out. I need to take a shower."

"I thought I would ask you if you wanted to join, you have only been here for three months and we need another man that can do all the work." He looked me up and down, amused.

I glanced in shock, seriously considering this. I might say yes after I clean up but it's gross. No, I couldn't. But wait, if I only touch women, I'm straight. Am I gay if Cas is there? Well, fuck.

"Nah, I'm good for now." I kinda regretted my decision; but I mock Cas all the time for doing shit like that. My mind was going a mile a minute while Cas just stared at me, a bit concerned if I'm being honest.

I would be judged if I did it and be called a hypocrite by Cas. What if I get called gay? I mean, I do kinda like men... NOT in a gay way though! I feel like all these 'macho' men here would judge me. Cas is just- so handsome. His messy hair, his piercing eyes; I don't know why I'm thinking so much about this! I've never felt this much for a man before. I drifted off, thinking about how mesmerizing Castiel's body was.

"Y/n, you happy or..?" Cas' eyes flickered down towards my boxers, a smile of disbelief on his face. I look down, confused at first. My eyes widened in embarrassment when I realized my boxers were bulging.

I got so embarrassed, I yelled. "CAS. LEAVE NOW. PLEASE."

I was so red, I got in the shower for around 15 minutes. I was still extremely embarrassed about what happened. I sat on my bed, the moments replaying in my head countless times. Having a slight panic attack as I put clothes on, I whispered to myself. "What if Cas tells someone? What if he tells Dean? What if he thinks I'm gross? Fuck!"

I heard a slight creak at the door, it was Cas. I stared at him in shock and fear. Castiel walked over to me, sitting on my bed. I'm fully dressed by now. I kept my distance, not wanting to make him feel uncomfortable.

"Hey, y/n. I wanted to say that it's okay. I won't tell anyone about what happened." Cas stood up and approached me, rubbing my shoulder in hopes of comforting me.

I felt calm. I didn't know why but I felt safe when I was with him. My face started burning up, my eyes filling up with tears. I reached over and hugged Castiel, crying.

"I'm sorry, Cas. I'm so sorry, I just don't know what's happening or why I feel this way. I don't want Dean or anyone to be angry with me. I'm sorry, Cas. I don't know what to do; please, don't tell Dean. Please, just please." By this point, I'm in hysterics, crying into Cas' shoulder.

He pulled me off, wiping away my tears. "Y/n, it's okay to feel this way. Don't be scared, you don't need to apologize at all."

I looked up at Cas and got lost in his eyes. He's just beautiful, I knew I couldn't be gay. He's just handsome, right? It's normal to think a guy is handsome. It doesn't mean I'm gay or anything. It just means I'm comfortable with my sexuality. Or whatever that may be.

"Y/n, I'm gonna go, okay? Holler if you need anything. I mean anything, okay?" Cas looked happy, not like a smirk, just genuinely happy. I felt bad but relieved that he wasn't gonna say anything about what happened.

I decided to take a quick nap. I laid down on my bed, still filled with emotion and fell asleep. All I could think about was Cas. 

I jumped out of bed, hearing a weird noise. "What the hell is that?" I groaned, obviously tired. I looked out the window and nobody's there. It's just dark with the stars and a small campfire outside. No cars, just a forest. So what the hell was that noise? I'm trying to sleep and someone's out here making weird noises. The audacity, I swear.

I walk out of my camper, which is now the only one there. I started to panic a little but then I heard the noise again. My eyes darted to the direction of the sound. "Cas?"