Spitting Blood into a Fish Tank Vol. I [A Wish to Wish]

14 - dreamless hope X

14 - dreamless hope X

"You chose the wrong person." Nuri trails her fingers on the black photography camera.

The white space, so thrilling and filthy.

Not a speck of red or black seen, only white in the endless space.

Nuri bites her nails, "By the way, where did you take my dog to?"

In a distance, a man with white disordered robes and a gold halo on his head could be seen.

Any normal person, would think of him as a woman for his slender body, feminine features, and long hair.

But Lita isn't a normal person, she's one of the common people, and she has seen many like him.

"The Heavens' choice is absolute and right," the man's smile never wavers, "And worry not, your loyal creature is inside your soul for you are one."

Nuri furrows her eyebrows, "What do you mean by inside my soul? And one?"

The Heaven's angel smiles, "A mortal's illusion and wish is endless, when one focuses on a fantasy, an illusion is made, and live it will."

Nuri isn't an empty-brained child.

Lita isn't a mortal who escapes Hell, killed fifty men, and a dark practitioner for nothing.

Nuri isn't an immortal for nothing.

"No," Nuri's fingers tighten around the photography camera, "If my dog is my illusion, how can others see it? How can it kill?"

-["have you forgotten?"]-

The voice is back, ringing in her head, as if paralyzing her.

White and white and white. Lita's mind wanders.

"When one dreams of it, one will unconsciously create an image to reality, and reality is reality," the ground cracks and the skies pours white rain, "With lambs and wine, forbidden knowledge and mastery, what is impossible?"

---[notes : lambs refer to the humans and animals Lita killed, while wine as blood.]---

Rain pours harder, soon, the water rises to Lita's ankles.

"Nuri Alphest is an immortal. The Heaven's Trials forbids to-be-official-Gods from using their divine powers and body to pass the tests," the angel draw a pattern, "Thus in this trial, you are Lita Dan, a mortal."

---[notes : to you who might've forgotten, Lita Dan died, reincarnated to Nuri Alphest who then becomes her own God named The Darkness.]---

Lita Dan is a calculus and complicated girl.

A flower that uses any means to keep herself gracefully blooming even in winter and stormy days.

Lita's mind is vast, filled with imaginations and thick plots of speculations and perspectives.

If one person did a bad deed, she would think of herself as that person. Using the person's point of view of the mortal world, history, reasons, and sentiment.

If the person is considered innocent, she forgives. If deemed evil, written in her black note.

Lita is a person who views the world in three colors, black, white, and grey.

Yet no matter what, she couldn't accept herself as white or grey. After all, the sin of murdering fifty mortals, countless animals, and unspeakable crimes have proven her worthy to be fully black.

Lita Dan's heart tightens. No matter what, the truth is always bitter. But she would rather live another day to know the truth than be the Heaven's air-headed puppet play.

Lita bitterly smiles, "Ai, how pitiful I am, to be deceived by my own illusion for thousands of years."

-["you've forgotten, haven't you?"]-

White and white and white.

Must purity be white?

If villains deserve the fire from hell, then she had had it since long ago.

Was it not enough?

Just which God is so bored? What more do you want?

Lita's fingers press on the photography camera buttons.

With a click! the camera turns on.

A mortal's memory is never strong.

A mortal's consciousness is never far from unconsciousness.

And Nuri Alphest was a mortal. Lita Dan is a mortal.

The video plays.