Scream My Name - Lee Know ✔️

Useless

Minho was looking down most of the time he told his story. He was pained with the loss of his family and was thrown to a world he knew nothing about. But he smirked at the end. Smirked as he talked his way out of death. He seemed proud for some reason. For what? I didn't know, Minho was still a bit complicated to decipher even after his backstory.

"So you came up with the deal. Not Taemin?"
"Taemin tells everyone that so people won't think he almost lost to me.. His pride is more important, so I've used it to my advantage. "
"Your actually a good person ?"
"I'm not good or bad. That's for you to decide. Like I said before though, anything I do or have done isn't measured by a humans' moral." He chuckles to himself.

I'm I to decide? Good or bad. If he once was human like he said he was, he still must be broken from the way his family was murdered. The way Taemin turned his back on people who believed in him. What God would turn his back on his believers, his followers?! It made be think about everything Minho  was. What I thought he was, what everyone thought he was, and who he used to be.

"Right. Whats the real reason your here anyway? Come to use me again?" I say.
"To talk one last time. To tell you that I've already used you all the way to your fullest potential. In fact, I could've turned you away long ago . I just enjoyed watching you go from don't touch me to I want you within seconds.. Y/n, Your practically useless.. Don't you realize?"
"I've known that.. Especially after you know.." I look down in regret.
"You can say it, your impure because we had sex. The ritual that their going to do has been fucked over when you gave in. Wow, I even got to bath you out in my holy waters. Your literally one step away from turning into one of my perfect little followers. It's to the point where I don't even need an ounce of your blood anymore. Literally just a drop will do after the shit you let me do. The fact that YangYang trusted you too. Admit it your really just a whore.." I breathed in a shaky breath as he says this.

...I was afraid of death...
I've been since the beginning.
But maybe I am just a whore..

"Kill me. Spare me the guilt." I demanded, for I rather be dead than face what I've done to YangYang.
"No. I'll let them take you. Once they find out your impure... there will be hell and they'll murder you on sight. YangYang will probably loose it, hopefully someone will kill him before his emotions cause some big event.. Everything is all in place, just because you blindly followed me."
"What was I supposed to do? You think I could just kill you or run?!?! I know I can't do that. God damn it, I was scared Minho. Scared of you."
"Fear. Fear cost you your life as it once did to mine. You just weren't lucky enough to be blessed and continue on like I was.."

He leans over to me kissing my pouting lips. Tears begin to fall on my face as he continues on kissing me ever so gently. I knew I was fucked over the moment I found about his secret, but I still felt so hurt. For a second I thought Minho was good, but all he cares about is himself.

He's still that same old asshole. Nothing had changed.

When he lets go, he looks dead into my eyes and with his thumbs he wipes off my tears, "Humans cry so easily... Just as they Fear so easily. Have fun with your boyfriend while you can Kitten... Because Once he finds out your dirty secret, no one will come to save you."
Minho disappeared as I blinked away my tears that started to blur my vision. I look frantically around my room, but he really was gone. I curled up into my bed holding my chest with both of my hands. My whole heart was weighing down onto my lungs as if it was trying to suffocate me. I felt like I was about to explode. I was surely in shambles. What I did was wrong with Minho, but I went with it anyway. Fear was something I blame. Because he was right, it was my downfall. But I shouldn't just blame fear.. I need to blame myself. For I took the step of falling down that rabbit hole with him. I should of ran when I could, should have gathered up my courage and held onto Yang with all I had..

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm so fucking sorry.
Your not the disappointment YangYang..

I am.

"Y/n?" I look towards my door to see Ryunjin.
"What's up?"
"You okay?.." I quickly try to sit up and wipe away my tears.
"Yeah I am."
"Your crying... Did YangYang break up with you?"
"He will."
"What?!" She says shocked, "Wait why?!"
"I may have slept with a guy named Lee Minho from my college."
"WHAT- You didn't?! I thought you two were In love or whatever? Why did you do it?"
"I did it because I'm selfish. I regret it though. Minho used me. I'm sure he also lied about a bunch of shit he just told me.. I shouldn't be surprised.. He is Minho."
" How do you feel about this guy Minho?"
"Hate him."
"You sure?"
"I'm sure.. "
"I don't know, it looks like you fell in love with a fuck boy..."
"Love?!?! Not even. It was so much different than with Yang..." I started to get flustered and even more upset.
"Minho really did get into your head. It's okay to be able to recognize you felt that way about him. Just have to face YangYang about it, as hard as it is."
"Your right." I say sighing loudly.

She nods about to walk way, but I call her name to make her stop.
"Yes?" She asks.
"I want you to know that I love you. And if I don't come back home one day like dad..just know that I care for you and mom...And that I'm sorry."
"Don't tell me your running away.."
"Something like that.."
"Over a boy?!?! Y/n are you for real?" She furrows her brows becoming angry with me.
"No. It's not a boy or boys. I'm just saying that just in case."
"There is no 'just in case'. You'll stay here. I know it, there's no way you'll leave. Whatever's going to come your way, God will be on your side."
"No deity is on my side. Devine intervention isn't happening."
"It will."

She quickly leaves out of my room.

How could she be so confident in it? Well, she doesn't know what I do. If she knew, she'd say I was fucked as well. Because nothing was on my side. No one was coming to save me. Just as Minho had told me.. No one was to be my hero.

!! Author's Note !!

Hello Hello! I am back again! These two chapters were ify on my side, so I hope they make sense and that they are everything y'all were wanting! (I'm just getting too impatient to show the ceremony part if I am being honest. I'm so excited haha✨) Comment what y'all think! I love hearing everyone's thoughts, honestly it makes my day 🥺

Thank you for reading this far my dear readers❣️🍀

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