My life has always been hard not just the normal hard but the worst kind of hard when every waking moment is toucher and your dyeing for a way out and would do anything ,
You
Beep beep beep
I wake with the sound of my alarm clock beeping on my bedside table I try ignore it but the flashing red lights reading that its 8:00 am make it almost impossible to do so . I roll over on my bed onto my back grabbing the alarm clock and through it hard against my blue painted walls , I take in a beep breath of air and sigh out every night i pray that I don't wake up in the morning and that I just die In my sleep the easy way out of life but wouldn't we all perfure to die easily rather then die painfully but it never works I always wake up to another day of pain and toucher .
' Skyler get your fucking lazy ass out of bed ill kill you if you make your sister late for school '
I hear my mom roar up the stairs at me . Mornings in my house are usually a world war and I find it safer to stay in my room until I'm ready to go to school so I only have to be in the middle of it all for just a few minutes , my mom does love me beep down but she just finds it easer to hate me rather to show she loves me so she doesn't have to deal with all her emotions .
Its a Dark rainy day a topical Irish day , It only takes me 15 minutes to get dressed I opted for black skinny jeans my new black skull t shirt , skulls was my thing and my black and Gray baseball jumper , i though my back pack over my shoulder and quickly ran down the stairs and into the kitchen a big long coldroom with green walls and cold tiles on the floor .
' bye guys I'm off I have skateboarding practice after school so ill miss dinner ' I say Eager to get out the door before she tells me I can't
' you should have been born a man styler look at what your wearing why can't you look like a girl for once ' she spoke in a stern voice
I turned and ran out of the kitchen grabbing my skateboard on my way out the front door . I hate when my mom starts her lecture on what I should a nod should not look like dress like and who I can love but luckily I did t have to listen to the rest of it because I ran out of that place before it could get bigger ,
