And she watched. Day by day and realised the boy she would do anything for. Did not want anything to do with her.
You know that sinking feeling? When you see something that upsets you or hear something you didn't want to hear? It feels like that.
It's never a big dramatic action that sets this feeing off, it's the tiny things that no one else really notices, apart from you. And maybe if i wasn't so obsessive over the little details, i wouldn't be half as hurt as i am.
Although all these tiny things i notice he does can impact my whole day, will i ever tell him i like him? No, never because deep down i know i will never be his first choice or the one he wants.
He tells me about one of my best friends and how beautiful she is and has once even told her he liked him but she rejected him. Weird how she just throws him away like that and continues being friends with him where as i can't even remotely get his attention. It hurts.
i will always, and i mean always be the second choice.
I get myself so down about this but then i proceed to latch on to the most minor details of things he says or does and every time i doubt my feelings i replay those tiny, probably meaningless moments.
i loved him with every bit of my being, but to him we will always remain just friends.
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the sinking feeling
FanfictionHave you ever liked someone for a long period of time and just have this soft spot for them that doesn't ever seem to fade? Usually this would be your soppy, normal slow-burn but no, he could never (in her eyes) feel half as much love for her and sh...
