Blue Of Love- Dirty Secrets In The Class Desk

Did you betray me Professor?

1 hour had past and I was despondent with the second hour. I have been rubbing  my sweat out of my forehead and droplets of tears from my eyes. Suddenly a drop fell into my answer sheet which I immediately rubbed through my fingers so that the invigilator doesn’t notice. My answer sheet was blank and I wrote just  3 answers. Every one was writing while I had flashbacks of me and my Physics professor having sex.  At that moment my heart was growing abhorrence  for Nivaan. If I could have been with him right now I could have slapped him at this moment. He used me for his satisfaction. I was just a piece used for gratification. Increased emotional attachments so that I could give him everything he wanted. I took out my bottle and drank little water and started writing as much as I could. The bell rang and I relinquished over it. The teacher took the answer sheets. I collected my things and came out. Nivaan had no duty that day and so he waited for me just outside the class. He asked me How was everything? I ignored him wiped my tears and walked away. He ran behind me calling my name. I was sure everybody was noticing us but I didn’t cared at that time. I went near dad when he asked how was the paper? I said Papa! I am failing. Let me go home please. He lost his smile. We didn’t talked anything about the exam until we reached home. Mom was about to ask me when dad shaked his head to stop her. I went to my room and locked myself up. I threw my clothes into my bed and went to my bathroom and took bath and came to my bed after hours of crying. I was sleepy after all. My phone rang a thousand times but I didn’t picked up any of the calls. I knew well who would call me. It must be my relatives, cousins to ask how my hardest paper went just to sympathize  me and laugh behind me. And my friends would be calling just to ask about what they saw in the college like Nivaan sir tere piche kyu bhaag rahe the? Kuch chal raha kya tumlogo kya? Phir Abhi ka kya huwa? Nivaan sir ye wo etc etc. And it would be Nivaan who is calling and texting a thousands of messages to me. I hated that person. I was crying and was about to sleep when Dad knocked at my door and said Neina! Open the door. Sir wants to talk to you. Sir ko bolo wo bhar me jaye I said angrily.  I didn’t used slangs in front of parents but this time I was angry and they weren’t even scolding me. I slept and then Mom knocked my door after 30 minutes. I said nothing and then Mom said Neina! If you are not coming out you are not allowed to give rest of the exams . I opened the door to say I don’t want to give any exams mom when saw Nivaan standing at my door. He pushed my door and came to my room. It was mess after all. I went inside and sat on my chair. He said Can we go outside? I shouted at him NO! He went out of my room and convinced my mother to let me go out with him to talk about the things and so I agreed although I never wanted to. I went out in the same outfit I wore at home at home. I sat on his car and he started driving. I didn’t wanted to talk to him at all. After 10 minutes he parked the car on the side of a deserted road. It was night and I forgot what time it was. I came out of the car. He came out and stood near me. He asked me What is wrong? I shouted at him you divulged  me bastard. What else could be wrong? You used me like a piece of shit. You convinced me to sleep with you. I never asked you what could you do because I believed you damn it and you broke my faith into pieces. Listen drop me home and let me stay in peace like I was in my life before you. Please leave me alone from now Nivaan please.  As I ended my words I felt the wind blowing so hard. He was not confused by what I just said. It started raining and he pulled me inside his car. I started crying and he was still silent. He took my hand in his but I took my hand away. He was angry after all by my behavior and caught me by my cheeks tightly and came near me and said I betrayed nobody. Not even you. So keep patience and yes I wont forget my promise I did to you so I wouldn’t disappoint you no matter what circumstances we need to face. I will be there for you. You don’t need to hear what is going on for  fulfilling your promise but I want you to keep patience for everything.  After all I was convinced with this when Mom called Nivaan and asked if everything is right. He said everything is ok and we will be home in an hour.
He then took my hand in his again and kissed it. I didn’t hesitated this time but was still not looking at him. Would you promise Nivaan that you will not betray me at last? I asked him. He turned my head towards him to look at him and said Promise! I would never. And if I do that kill me with my kitchen knife. OK? He said and laughed. I smiled too and we both were silent for another thirty seconds  when he kissed me on my cheeks. I opened my mouth because I was surprised for a moment. I looked at him and kissed him. He was in the driver seat and I was on the passenger seat  so it was difficult to go closer. He stopped me for a moment and said I would try to resolve it. He went out and opened my door and said lets go on the back seat. I smiled and went on the back seat. He switched off the lights of the car and came back on the seat. We faced each other and kissed each other when he slipped his hands through my waist and pulled my top up and threw it on the front seat of the car. He took off  his tee by himself and started kissing me again. I lied down  on the seat when he pulled down my shorts and panty. It was cold and raining outside where I was naked and cold wind was nipping over my body. He himself took off his every piece of clothes and put his penis inside my vagina. It was harder and warm. I started moaning when he started pushing and pulling slowly. He kissed me in every 5 seconds and kept smooching  my body. He rubbed his fingers through my lips and my hands went through his back scratching his back with my nails. His beard itched  me sometimes while kissing during the movements but his beard was sexy.  He terminated  it in 10 minutes and sat down. I too sat down but was shivering due to cold so he gave me his tee to cover myself until he could find my clothes. We were silent for a minute when he asked Was it good? I looked at him and laughed a lot. He pulled me closer and said So! Miss begum. Your  stress are away now. I wonder how far I could go as a psychologist. I kissed him on his lower lip. We completed dressing ourselves and he started driving. He stopped at a ice cream store and asked me if I need ice cream. I said yes! We went outside to buy ice cream. I was selecting ice cream and then met a friend of mine from school. She called me by my name and so I recognized her. She asked me what was I doing there wearing those outfits . Ahh! Wo actually huwa ye ki mujhe ice cream khana tha and so I came out I said. Accha wo sab thik hain but who is this guy? She asked and I said Ah This is Nivaan Chatopaddhyay, my boyfriend. Nivaan gave her a smile. I said bye to her after exchanging our numbers and got into car after selecting a butter scotch flavor ice cream for me and a berry for Nivaan. I thought Why so bad choice of flavor? Because I hated  berry obviously. I said Nivaan! Why do you have a weird choice? He asked me Am I your boyfriend? I ignored his question and asked him again Do you love berry? Really? Why? He asked me again You have a boyfriend?. I was irritated and said Then? What would I say her? I am roaming with my professor? Come on Nivaan! Things aren’t so simple as we are taking it to as.  He looked at me and said Its ok! I have no issue. I smiled back and gave him the ice cream.  He started driving and I opened the window when the wind stuck me hard on my face but it was peaceful. I without looking at him called him Nivaan! He replied with a Hmm! Can we stay the night here? Just in your car driving far away until its morning and then have a tea in a vendor and have lunch on some spot up on the mountains. He continued And have dinner on a place near a river with stones  and have a camp fire and just sing, dance have barbeque and talk for the whole night and sleep under the stars? I looked at him shockingly. He looked at me and said What?  I know about your fantasies? Baby! I can read you like blatantly. Accha? SO continue reading me and say what’s going in my mind now. He said Now ! Miss begum needs sleep and should continue  studying  from tomorrow morning since after two days she is having her another paper. I smiled and gave him a look and said Thank you. He asked For? For everything. For giving me a reason to smile. And sorry about everything I said. He said smiling exonerated miss begum.  I turned my head toward the window and kept feeling the wind on my face again.