Facing the Wind

Prologue

I was walking down the street when wind suddenly blew hard. The sky turned gray and gloomy, and after a few minutes the rain started to pour but instead of running away to avoid the rain, I looked up to the sky and smiled.

"Ang ganda..." I uttered without a sound coming out from my mouth.

I started to look around hoping to see other people but why did I even expect? It's raining hard, of course no one will be stupid enough to get soaked with rain water in the middle of the street just like what I'm doing right now. I laughed to myself because I just called myself stupid.

"Yeah.. I'm so stupid. Napakatanga ko at naniwala ako sayo." I believed that you're the wind and I'm a lost leaf that will be pushed by you to let me find the direction that's meant for me. But i wanted to thank you. Thank you for making me realized that I'm not a lost leaf but a lonely pinwheel in the middle of nowhere.

I laughed for the second time but now my face is covered with not just the rain but also full of tears. But no one can tell that I'm crying, no one will care anyway.

"Ang lakas ng epekto mo sakin. Pati sarili ko kinakausap ko na. Nababaliw na yata ako." I laughed again. Pero yung tawa na yun ay naging hagulgol hanggang sa napaluhod na ko dahil sobra sobra na yung nararamdaman ko. Feeling ko anytime sasabog na ko.

How can life be so cruel? Did I do something wrong to deserve all of this? Well, maybe... I'm always hated by everyone. I was never the choice of anyone. I'm just a nobody who's wanting to be noticed by someone.

And that someone... is gone. He left me. Naiwan na naman akong mag-isa.Lagi nalang akong iniiwan. Am I not worthy to be with? Why can't anyone stay in my life? Hindi ko naman sila masisisi, my life is a mess to begin with....