not the perfect one - Dreamnap || completed

i don't cry - payday

I don't cry over bitches, don't cry over boys
Only time that I cry is when I can't escape the noise
I'm crashing and I'm burning but at least it's Rolls-Royce Facetime calls,
I just wanna hear your voice
'Cause it's much better than the ones in my head Wrote a suicide note and I'm not even dead

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Tws: ed, sh, mention of bulling, mention of cutting, cuts,

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6:47pm August 14th

3rd person p.o.v

Karl and Nick ate their food while listening to music that was playing from their shared playlist. They were now at Karls house sitting on the couch watching some random show they found on Netflix. Karl grabbed some popcorn and Sapnap was sitting on the couch watching the tv. Soon Karl came back with some popcorn as he sat next to the black hair. After a while of comfortable silence that was broke by Karl. "so..um wanna talk about it now? What's going on with you sap?" Karl said facing Sapnap as he took some popcorn from the bowl.

"Uh..." sapnap couldn't speak- had trouble speaking because he never talked about his problems in 16 years, basically his life time. "it's okay take your time as I said before I won't judge" Karl said in soft tone facing Sapnap and placing his hand on Sapnap's shoulder.

"Okay so um... You know that I switched schools but you don't know the reason because I was scared to tell you and uh... I- I was getting bullied like m-mentally and ph-physically, I had a hard time in school but you didn't see because you go to different high school but um..." Sapnap said stuttering and now tearing up as Karl put him hand on Sapnaps but the black hair moved his hand quicky because of the pain from cutting.

Karl then looked at the black hair that was holding his hand and had a scared look on his face "sap...have you...been cutting yourself?" Karl said facing the black hair with a worried face and soft but worried voice. Sapnap nodded a little but it wasn't really that visible but Karl noticed him nodding and he put his hand around the black-haired pulling him in a tight hug. The black-haired boy huged back as he was now crying the brunets arms.

"Sap...?" "y-yea?" "How long have you been cutting yourself?" Karl asked after a long moment of comfortable silence that was from time to time broken by Sapnap sniffing. "i-a few m-months..." Sapnap said with his head buried in Karls chest. "oh sap..." Karls said breaking the hug. "w-why?" Karl asked again now slightly tearing up. "t-the voices.." "What voices sap?" "T-the ones in my h-head..i- I had a hard time with them a-and they were saying some bad stuff to me and I-I cant stop it.." Sapnap was now crying more than he was before

"w-what have they said to you most recently?" Karl was really worried about his best friend, he was happy that Sapnap was comfortable enough to open up to him. He hasn't open up to anyone so that made him happy a bit. "uh..things like I should just k-kill myself and that n-nobody would ever love o-or that I should j-just starve myself so that I- I wouldn't be that fat so somebody w-would l-love me..." Sapnap said sniffing and stuttering from time to time because it was really hard for him to talk about this kind of things. He felt comfortable with Karl knowing these things.

"Sap don't listen to them. You're not fat, okay? You're beautiful just the way you are and I love you so much, okay? If there's something wrong you can always tell me you know I won't judge you. I'm always here for you, okay? You can trust me on that one. I'm glad that you are comfortable enough to tell me this. I know you have trouble trysting people and opening up to someone is completely different story. " Karl said with a small chuckle. Sapnap was blushing at the compliment that Karl gave him. 'Does he mean it? Am I beautiful?' thoughts were going through Sapnaps head.

After like an hour Sapnap was now sleeping in Karls arms while they were cuddling. Karl played with Sapnaps fluffy black hair. Karl then turned off the tv as he was turning off the tv he moved a bit which made Sapnaps sleeve roll up a little which made his cuts visible. "Oh sap.." Karl whispered to himself with a sad look. He then continued to play with Sapnaps hair watching him sleep so peacefully. Soon Karl fell asleep as well. They were not sleeping peacefully while cuddling (A/N you karlnap shippers out there this is not karlnap okay? Now hush.)

<Time skip>

9:04am august 15th.

Still 3rd person p.o.v

Karl woke up first yawing as he slowly opened his grey eyes. He found himself on a couch with his best friend peacefully sleeping on top of him. 'Did we fell asleep like this?' Karl said to himself with a small but cute giggle at the end. He then played with Sapnaps hair, after a few minutes Sapnap woke up slowly opening his blue eyes. (A/N I know Sapnap doesn't have blue eyes irl but in this story he has. Now hush.)

"morning" Sapnap said in his deep morning voice. (A/N corpse arc?????okay ill shut up-) "good morning sleeping beauty" Karl said giggling. "ohkay- what time it is btw?" Sapnap said as he was now sitting up "uh....9:04am" Karl said smiling as he put down his phone. "What do you wanna do today snapmap?" Karl asked as Sapnap was scrolling on twitter. "i don't know actually..uh but one thing I know is that im hungry and that we should get something for breakfast." Sapnap said still scrolling on twitter not making eye contact with Karl.

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I feel much better with your head on my legs
Matter of fact, go ahead and put your feet on my pegs
Let's ride, let's glide, let's elevate tonight
Imma reel you in close 'cause I swear I don't bite