Tying Loose Ends

Chapter 2

When I opened the door I didn't expect to see Tyler standing in my doorway this early in the morning. "Tyler, what are you doing here?" I pulled him inside before anyone could see. He looked surprised at my actions, but then looked down at my chest where I had the twins resting on me. I could tell that he wanted to hold his daughter, the way he was staring at her made me feel sad about the whole situation. "I'm sorry Alyssa I just wanted to talk without anyone else here." he stepped closer to me and I could see that he wanted to ask about Genevive.

I looked down at my daughter and smiled. She was looking back at me with the same eyes of someone else who was looking at me at that very moment. I asked him if he wanted to hold her, I knew he wanted to say yes but he was hesitant. I took his hand and led him over to the couch in the living room. "Um, Alyssa, I've never held a baby before, I don't think I should.", I need you to just relax, I told him. He sat back on the couch and kept rubbing his hands on his jeans. "Look, three days ago I didn't know how to do any of this", we both laughed at this notion.

She's your daughter you'll be fine I told him and brought Genevive down to his arms. I can't say he didn't look uncomfortable, but he got better after he calmed down a bit. "Alyssa, I'm sorry again for not calling or anything before coming here. I just don't know what to do about everything you know." I was still dealing with all of this myself on top of taking care of two babies. I told him I would call him and we could meet up again and talk about what is next regarding Genevive and the same for Carlos when it comes to seeing Josiah.

After talking for a little bit longer Genevive starts to cry and Tyler jumps a little like he thought he broke her. I told him that she was just getting hungry, he calmed down and we both started to laugh a little. He left soon after and we agreed to meet later this week at the park again. Later that day Adam came home first and peeked in my room before going to his. "How's my sis doing being a mom alone for the first time." I was still waking up from the nap I was taking, and just nodded my head even though I didn't actually hear what he said.

"You know you're lucky you get to stay home all day, last week of school and the teacher is still trying to make us do work." I glared at him when he said this. "You really want to be at home taking care of two newborns. Changing diapers and breastfeeding them every two hours." his face looked like he was about to vomit. He said the whole breastfeeding was too much to hear so he quickly went back to his room. I know that I've had these babies for only a short time but being a "single mom" is not a walk in the park.

Shelby came over later that night to see and help me with the babies, so I could rest up for a little while. "Girl, I still can't believe how cute these two are, I can't wait to have kids of my own." I told her just don't go the way I did if she wants her kids to have the same dad. She gave me a sad look and I just stared down at the twins. I still look at Josiah and Genevive and see Carlos along with Tyler in both of them. How my life ended up here is still mind blowing to me, never would have thought that I would be sitting on my bed looking down at two newborns who came from my body.

After Shelby left I decided to text Carlos and ask him to meet me here after school tomorrow so we could talk more about the baby and what to do next. The crazy thing is, I still have no idea what to do myself. He texted me that since school was almost out that he can just meet me at the end of the week.

Almost a week has gone by and my life has seemed to fall into a routine. I spend a sleepless night taking care of the twins then wake up, have half of some leftover breakfast and spend the rest of the day watching TV and feeding and changing the twins. Finally came Friday and I can't lie I was scared and nervous to see Carlos again. It was around five when I heard my mother call for me from downstairs. "Alyssa honey Carlos is here to see you, come downstairs." I told her I would be right there and I found myself trying to look at least a little presentable.