Why I'm quitting

My problems

I'm not doing okay I'm very tiered about school covid Family And friend issue okay? I wanna give a fuck but I can't I wanna die but also don't want to cuz there's actually people who actually care but I push them away cuz im scared im so fucking tired my therapist says it'll be okay there words ain't doing shit I wanna become suicide but I also don't want to idk I'm just tired of people's shit I stoped caring so it hurt less why don't I care or realize I'm hurting myself and my family my mom started crying saying I'm changing I'm a miner I should be fucking living my life not careing if someone gives a shit or not "you need help" my ass you made me like this my mom raised me saying people will care how you look like how you act I'm tied it hearing "how are you doing" there so fake full of shit I'm weak and what's wrong with that? I'm proud of being weird and a freak and bi but I stoped caring I miss my old self where I was happy inocent idk what happened this is why I'm quitting thank you for your time have a good/night