Unexpected Stranger (EN)

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*Harry*

'Why me!' I shouted at the whole room and fell helplessly onto the carefully made bed. I immediately pulled my legs to my chest and let my tears wet my cheeks. Why they can't let me be? Is that my fault that I like man instead of women? That's why everyone had to constantly humiliate me and make my life like a hell? Didn't I suffer enough already? As if it wasn't enough that my dad got mad at me and left us right after I confessed with my orientation. What's the matter of having my eyebrows trimmed or my nails perfectly trimmed from time to time? All of these reasons are just a few exuses for my suffering. I've often wondered, what would happen if I would like girls. If everyone would treat me just like the other high school students and I would have at least some friends. If I still would be the target of ridicule anyway. Of course I don't have a friend at school because everyone despises me. They don't want anything to do with gay people. 

More then often I'll end up with my head in the toilet or go home with dirty and tear up clothes. I'm not trying to get back at them anymore cause it's usseles and I don't want to end up like them. Stupid monkeys with no brain. The only human on this planet who accepts my orientation is my mum. She suspects it a long time but despite that she loves me still the same. I can't be more grateful for her. That's the reason that I love her so much. I will do everything for her. Anyone can think that I have depression or something like that but it's not true. I just need some time alone and space to cry. After that is everything fine and I can start to function normally. 

My luck is on my side cause it's my last year in that stupid and awfull school with that toxic people. Four months. It's only four months to the end of the school year. I can't wait. I like school but not my classmates. They are horrible. My teachers don't like me very much either cause in most of the times I'm smarter than they are. I just can't stay silent when they are talking nonsence. Maybe that's the reason why I'm at the principal's office quite often. I don't care about that. The worst thing for this year will be a graduation party. I don't wanna go but my mum wants me to be there, so I don't have a choice. I just wanna be home with my cat. I don't have any reasons to be there. 

All of my free time I'm spending home or at work which I don't like but I can't quit. Our family needs that source of money. I don't want my mum to get a second job. I'm just trying to help her in every way possible. I'm working at a bakery with some kind and lovely people but the management is terrible. They mock me and make fun of me like my classmates at school. My boss is extremly homophobic and hates me but he can't fire me cause I'm the most hardworking human there. Besides everyone who is working with me is on my side. It's true that if I will find a better place to work, I will immediately quit and don't step to that building anymore. 

I'm laying on my bed for almost an hour now without moving and just thinking about life. My tears are already dry and my eyes are not that red like a while ago. But if someone would see me like this, they would know that I cried. I got out of bed only because I'm hungry and nobody is home. It means that cooking is up to me today. I'm not complainig. I like cooking, it's my favourite thing to do. It didn't take that long to prepare something easy. I took my plate with food and sat down on our sofa. I also can't forget about TV and my favourite tv show How I met your mother. It doesn't take long to finish my food and do the dishes. When I finished I saw mum at the door very tired and exhausted. She works at hospital so has very long shifts and a little time for herself. I warmed up some food for her and took it to her room so she could rest and get some much needed sleep. 

I went back to the TV with the intention of turning it off but I'm stopped by the news of the world-famous singer, Louis Tomlinson. He announced his next tour this year. I just shaked my head and actually turned off the TV. If I hadn't had such a terrible experience at his concert last year, I would have go there. He couldn't really blame himself but he could also stand up for me, which he didn't. Right in front of his eyes, an uneducated man sprayed me with water and shouted at me that I was just a disgusting gay, who deserves to die. He just looked regretfully in my direction but said nothing. He even stopped his bodyguard Kevin, when he wanted to help me. He rather got in the car and leaved as quickly as possible, as if an epidemic had broken out in that place.

I shook my head and successfully drove the memories of that day back into the corner where it belongs. I hurried up the stairs and sailed into the bathroom. I filled a pleasantly warm bath, added a little vanilla scent with pink flowers to it and climbed in without hesitation. I enjoy these quiet moments, when no one bothers me and insults me. After a few minutes, the water is already quite cold, so I leave it and just go to my room in a towel. I put on my boxers and check to see if I have things ready for school. When everything is in order, I go to bed with the phone going through the social media. The news they broadcasted on TV pops up a few times. When I've had enough, I turned off the phone and went to sleep. It's no news that I couldn't fall asleep. I kept rolling on the bed for about half an hour but sleep still didn't want to come. Eventually I couldn't sleep until two o'clock in the morning.

Hi everyone!

Another episode is here. I hate to say it but it's really difficult to translate something but I'm not gonna give up. Not yet at least. I hope you enjoyed this part and I will see you in the next one.

Bye! Treat people with kindness.  🏳️‍🌈