Trampoline Girl... I see you there... I also see me there.
Only separated by the cold, simple air.
The vibration of our shattered hearts and our silent screams,
Are resonating against our sunken souls and piercing our shriveled dreams.
You're zipped up in your elastic cage, wanting to be free.
And feeling alone in your painful world you don't realise that you are me.
Trampoline Girl... you're here and there, you're up and then you're down,
And as you fall, your bounce hits me and jars my crooked crown.
I am not your tepid queen to whom you should bow your head,
Neither for you to be the procacious princess, angry demands, I dread.
We are one and the same, a time warp, entangled and intricately meshed,
Yet struggling for freedom from the unity with which we are blessed.
Trampoline Girl, you softly weep, but no tears fall from your eyes.
No indication of pain, and no voice to your cries.
As you lay silent in your bed and I sit on your floor,
You do not know, and do not care, that I'm not "me" anymore.
I live for a dream so sacred, which will not ever be mine,
And one day you will have it and you will find that you are fine.
Trampoline Girl, do you know?
Wherever have I gone?
Do you know who I am? Who was I when I was born?
As I grew, and as I learned, and as I slowly changed,
As I morphed from screaming infant to adolescent strange.
To where can I return when I've come all this way?
Because I married you too, on your father's wedding day.
My vows spoke to the one who I chose to become mother.
But it's me loving you, not us loving one another.
Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue.
Well, the new is gone, the old is "me" that I now give to you,
I borrowed my fleeting time to become the family glue.
What goes to must go fro, what goes up must come down,
it's meant to be give and take... Please! Don't let me drown.
Trampoline Girl, I'm dying, my shell hides a shriveled soul.
I never meant to strip my canvas bare, but I did it for you all.
Trampoline Girl, if you want to know, the truth is that I lied.
All this time I have lived for love, while inside I slowly died.
Trampolines are for bouncing, sadly I never had one.
But still my life was up and down, with no one to whom I could run.
But you have me, so here I am! I don't want to try in vain.
Let me help you find the answer and we can heal both of our pain.
I tell you, you can trust me! But rest, your heart cannot.
So, I must take your heartbeat with mine, my past is all I've got.
So trust me, Trampoline Girl, when I see me in you,
My past will forever haunt me, but it can give you a clue.
Please, don't go where I went, I'm here to keep your guard. You don't understand it now, I know it's really hard.
Please love me, Trampoline Girl, I am fragile too. I may look strong on the outside, but on the inside I'm blue.
Trampoline Girl, can you hear me? Can you be my second chance?
Can the "me" I lost inside myself
Be alive in your life's dance?
Trampoline Girl, there will be clouds and sunshine, there will be ups and downs,
There will be joy and turmoil, There will be smiles and frowns.
Trampoline Girl, you're all I know, you're all I am these days.
I've lost my own identity, but I'm here for you always.
Xo
