Opposite Attracts

Heartache Meets Wechat

Here I go again. Going to work. Chitchat with my officemates. Fake a smile. Laugh hard though the joke is really not funny at all. I wasn't the normal person with a normal gender. I don't know? I might be an alien dressed like a human, that's how I look at myself in the mirror. At the age of 23, i am already a supervisor in a well known company in the country. Young as you may say. I have a long brown hair, really feminine soft and straight, envy of every woman i cross with. I wear slight make up and a very light pink lipstick to cover up my pale colored lips. I am not tall. Heels on my shoes do make me look tall. I always wear sophisticated clothes. I am organized in whatever i do, but in reality my head is a messed up doodle in a sheet of paper. holy nutz.

I got this irresistable look but i havn't got any boyfriend for almost 2 yrs.

I broke my heart back then. My ex lover got an affair with a female dog. Just like animals, animals, like animals by maroon 5.

I already moved on but i still haven't found this so called -guy in a glow in the dark armor. So annoying orange.

Why can't I find him? I'm always in the dark- like -hello? I go home late always? Haha kidding. This is the main reason i got nothing as of this day. I'm a workaholic. An alien with a big head. Hydrophobic alien.

This day is like the other days. Zebra... zebra... zebra... is running in my head again. Boredom strikes. Damn. My fucking subordinates were chitchatting again. As usual- relationships, dating, crush, heart sharings blahblahblah. I'm out of place.

I have nothing to share; so i pick up my earphone, turn on my music, volume up and sing to the beat of the song. Oh damn song, remembering those days.

"I finally found the love of a lifetime..."

I hate this song.

I push on the next button really damn hard like i wanna delete the damn song on my phone.

Next. Next. Next. Until i got this on the playlist -bluestahli takedown. Oh yeah!

"I wanna break you down! I wanna break you up! I wanna be the one to break your dignity! And all your empty cry, will wrap a whole inside. But you make a beautiful suicide". Shoot! Loud and clear. Enough to cover their stories from my ears.

No one asks me if i have an existing relationship. This is what makes a boss out of the picture when subordinates are sharing their stories. I am not friendly. I have this attitude of being a neutral body. I am either positive or negative. In short i go with the flow, act normal behave normal, do what is necessary. I'm a wise heartless nobody.

Cold as ice.

I'm afraid of getting attached with anyone because i am afraid of being left behind by anyone.

I'm really bored. I play mobile games, but playing mobile games is not enough to erase this feeling of unsatisfactions. I feel empty. I feel incomplete. I always ask myself am i really human? I can't feel anything. There is something missing. Something that i wanna feel.

I browsed my phone. I open my wechat. For a long time i haven't opened it. The last time i opened it is when me and my girl bestfriend used it in the office because we are located in different area on the floor. We used it as means of communication. Char. But she's not working with me right now. She resigned after she got lots of problem with her family. She went in the province again. Sigh. I missed her. I missed talking with her.

I clicked on the who's online within the area.

Click!

The red bubble appears on the message tab.

A message.

"Hi!"