Maybe, Someday

Thirteen

Maddox's POV:

There was absolutely no fucking way I could have predicted what was going to happen tonight. Yep - I figured out the kid thing - I thought I'd bring up the fact I'd found out about her big secret - she had a daughter with Daniels, I thought we would argue a bit and then I'd tell her I wanted her - tell her that Nova wasn't a deal breaker for me, but shit - I never expected this.

That we had a kid, that I had a fucking kid with Mila. That he was healthy and happy and being raised by someone else. I wasn't angry - I had no right to be, I was the asshole who fucking left her.
She was 19, alone and scared - she did the thing she thought was right for the kid.
But it didn't for a second mean I couldn't help thinking about was the what if's, what if I had stayed? What if we had never broken up? What if I had seen her when I had come home? Would things be different now, would we have raised our son together, would we be married and would Nova be our daughter and I knew I needed to stop thinking this way but fuck me it was hard.

Instead I was laying here in her spare room. The room was almost in darkness except for the light of the moon which snuck though the cracks in the blinds - it must have been full moon tonight.

Mila didn't want me to leave, she wanted me to stay - asked me to have breakfast with her and Nova in the morning and there was no way I was going to say no.

"Mads, are you awake?"

I lifted myself up in my elbows, Mila stood in my doorway.

"Yeah, everything ok Mils?"

"Yeah, can I come in?"

"Yeah" I chuckled at her, and as she came closer I took every piece of her in. Her long legs on display in the shorts she was wearing, up over the curves of her waist and to her chest - she was not wearing a bra and fuck if her tits weren't calling out to me, her hair fell down over her shoulders and her eyes watched me closely, watching me check her out.
She didn't shut me down earlier tonight when I told her to stop pushing me away which I took as a win, so I took her hands in mine and pulled gently, allowing her body to collide with my own on the bed and flipped us so we were laying side by side - I tucked her hair out of her face and met her gorgeous blue eyes.

"What's on your mind beautiful?"

She sighed, closing her eyes for a moment before speaking,

"I guess I just wanted to make sure you were ok after everything that happened, I know it's going to be a massive shock to you, I just"

She stalled, her bottom lip sinking under her teeth and even in the dimly lit room I was close enough to see tears fill her eyes.

"I really don't want you to hate me Maddox, it would absolutely ruin me if you hated me"

My fucking heart tightened in my chest, every single thing we had been through, every shitty thing she had been left with to deal on her own, and here she was within my reach devastated at the thought she was going to lose me again.
I closed the distance between us, wrapping me arm around her waist and pulling our bodies together -

"There is no way Mila, no fucking way I could ever, ever hate you"

I sealed it with the touch of my lips against hers, softly at first though she was the one to deepen it, her fingers dancing up my arm until the landed in my hair at the same time she opened her mouth allowing me access inside and I was suddenly lost in kissing her, in the feel of her mouth against mine, of our tongues touching and tasting each other.
I needed more, needed deeper, needed closer, I just needed more - my hand wandered down over her hip, slipping under the soft silk of her pyjama shirt and onto her soft skin, her body trembled as my hand travelled further up her delicious body, slowly Mila detached her mouth from mine, eyes opened.
She moved her own hand, over my bicep muscle and across my shirtless chess, down over my abs her eyes following her movements.

"Wow" she whispered and I couldn't help but smirk at her reaction to my body, to me

"Yeah?"

"Oh yeah, I mean you were always hot Maddox but now" her voice was a breathy whisper and when our gazes met there was so much desire trapped within her my control broke.

I sat up from the bed, pulling her up with me, both of my hands sliding under the front of her shirt and pushing the material up,

"Hardly seems fair I'm the only one whose not wearing a shirt Mila"

She never hesitated in raising her arms over her head and allowing me to remove it from her, and as I hovered over her, lips finding hers again I slowly sank her back down against the mattress, her legs spreading making room for my own body to follow and press against hers.
I trailed kisses along her jaw, down her neck, across her collarbone to her throat. I sucked on the skin there and she groaned - the sexiest god damn sound I had ever heard. I ran my tongue across the soft skin on her chest until I finally reached her hard pink nipples, pulling one into my mouth and sucking, her breath caught in her throat each time I swapped between her tits, drawing each one into my mouth and sucking and biting gently.
I moved my body lower, kissing every part of her exposed skin, stopping to take in each of the light pink marks the ran in places over her stomach.

"Maddox" she whispered, her body tense as she lifted her head to see me,

"So fucking sexy Mila" I kissed one of the stretch marks, then another - she moaned, relaxing underneath me as I continued kissing her stomach - my cock straining against the fabric of the denim jeans I was wearing - begging to be set free,
I wanted more, needed more - I wanted to bury myself so far inside this woman and never leave her. I moved back up to her, laying my body half over her and half on the bed to give myself some room to see how far she was going to let me take this tonight.
My fingers touched lightly on the skin of her lower stomach and under the elastic band of her shorts. I didn't move any further.

"I want you Mila, not just for tonight" I kissed her softly "I'm not going to rush you baby, we can do whatever you want, whatever pace you want to set"

I swear in her eyes I could see the moment she had made her decision - I knew how to read this girl and thank fucking god I was getting the answer I wanted so much - don't get me wrong I meant every fucking word I had said to her. I didn't want one night with her - I wanted thousands - I wanted all of them if she'd give them to me and I was willing to give her the power to set the speed - but shit my dick was a god damn steel fucking pole, and I was aching for some release.
So when she pushed me to my back, straddled my waist and grinded her centre over my raging dick - I was relieved, hands on my arms as she lowered her face to mine, her lips against my own as she whispered.

"I have wanted you every day for the past 10 years Maddox Taylor, there isn't a single moment where I have stopped. Don't make me beg you, just fuck me Maddox, it's been so long, to long since I've felt you"

I actually think the only way to describe the sound that left my throat was a growl, yes I fucking  growled, slamming my mouth to hers before I flipped her over and underneath me once more - taking back the control she hand just handed over to me so willingly.