She hates my existence,
And wonders why I'm still here, she wants me to
Die,
To disappear,
But I wont let go,
I wont let myself die,
I can't end my life,
Not because I don't want to,
But because I'm to selfish,
To dull to care,
I guess this is how it feels,
To have the hate from,
A sister,
The hostility,
The violence,
The trauma,
The sadness,
Those feelings that leaves,
Yoy dull,
Numb,
And broken inside,
The pretending,
Smiling,
Laughing,
The acting,
Sometimes you get so good
At it, that you don't realize,
Not even for a moment,
That you're pretending,
And that for a moment that,
You want someone to notice,
Because even though,
You're surrounded by friends,
You still feel lonely,
This is what happens when you,
Suffer from the hate from a sister.
