I've survived most of my second year becomes I've just been following what they want. I do my work, I pay attention (for the most part) and I get good grades. I keep my head down in the halls and just keep walking to the tune of whatever I'm listening to. I try to keep invisible, maybe I'll just fly under the radar, as I believe people have said before. But no, I have to go do those dumb things that draw attention. I make a comment or tell someone something, and it hints me instantly. It's that regret, that "You shouldn't have done that, you idiot!". It's always there, and it seems that it is never going away. Even now, I'm having that moment of second thought. Maybe I shouldn't even be doing this? What if someone finds this and it gets passed around school? I would be laughed at, surely? But oh well, I'll just do what I have been doing. I'll keep my head down in the halls, earbuds in, and just walk; Walk till I get to my next class. People will pass by, total strangers; they don't care, they don't know you or want to know your backstory. We are all worried about our own lives, we never really look at someone and wonder "What kind of life do they have?". We are all part of a bigger power, all just following the instructions they give in order to survive. Some revolt, but the bigger power has a plan for that. They just label them as "toubled teen" and pass them on, because no one looks into the backstories.
Author's notes: I'm not sure where that came from but I'm pretty sure I might have heard some of it somewhere...
