PAST to NOW : I was a person who showed her feeling I often had cried when something was made me sad or angry. I also felt sad when ppl I love felt sad. I always could understood the feelings from the other persons mostly my mom. Whenever my Mom cried or felt sad I noticed that I donno how but I started to felt sad too or crying too. (Before near to 1-2 years).
I aged up I still showed my feelings but less and more less and more less I also couldnt understand the feelings of other persons so good it was getting worser and worser I also started to think "why is she crying now again". All was getting worser until I didnt showed my feelings anymore. (Before near to 8 months).
After I didnt showed my feelings anymore I started to dont understand my feelings anymore. I started to feel something i never felt but still didnt noticed it really and thought it would go away and its just because I am in my puberty. (since before 1 week)
Noticed that something changed. I finally recognized that something was changing cause this feeling was often there, I often felt happy but a then a feeling came which felt like something is missing to me and I felt often lonely but my family was around me at the same time I wanted to be alone on my mobile write with my internet friends or watch something or listen to some music cause I wanted to feel understood from something someone and music helped me I also noticed that i mostly listened and still listen to sad music. One thing I also noticed was that I wanted to cry to oet this feeling out of my body but i coudnt , I COULDNT CRY BUT I JUST WANTED TO CRY(Before one week)
(Maybe you also feel like this so I hope this let you feel understand from someone btw sry for my many gramatic mistakes love yall and remember you are worth it and eat and drink good)
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RandomIn 2021 I felt that something changed. I had feelings which made myself inside sometimes dying. I noticed how less i cried in public and then I knew something was wrong with me cause every day felt fuxking sadder and sadder and not good enough. So i...
