Your Diary

•Winter Coat•

-November 26th
To klutz!
Hey baby. The wind is strong today, I nearly flew away with it.
I could have let the wind take me, it wasn't that high a fall, maybe I could
have been with you again.
But I didn't, because I know it's not what you would have ever wanted, not even
after our worst arguments.
Not even if I did the worst thing possible, something that could not be fixed and we wouldn't speak to eachother ever again. I know for a fact, you would still want me safe and healthy and happy.

That's why I began to love myself. Because Jimin, you proved to me that I was worth much more than I saw myself. You saved me from me. You taught me that even if I'm tired, even if I feel there is no point in anything anymore, that I had to keep going, to never give up, because if I did give up, you and everyone
who cared would likely end up feeling the same way, and I never want that.

It was a day just like this, the wind blowing the leaves across the path. Not too cold, but chilly. The sun was setting behind the trees and parents began bringing their children home for supper.

Just like now, I was sat on this very bench. Though not a pen, but a warm coffee in my hand. Hugging it for warmth and smelling
the sweetness before tasting the Carmel coffee.

I had looked up to see a bird flapping it's wings, when something even more beautiful caught my eye.
You.
You stood there in a long red winter coat.
Meeting my eyes as soon as I looked over.
A blush painted along your cheeks,
knowing I had caught you.
You scratch the back of your neck, sending me a toothy smile, your eyes turning into crescents.

That was when I knew I was attracted to you.

Then my heart skipped a beat. As you slowly
made your way over, minding not to
trample a pretty flower that stood up on its own.

It was my turn to have rose painted cheeks. Hearing your sweetly smooth voice for the first time.

"Park Jimin" you stuck your hand out, a silver Chanel ring on your middle finger.
"K-Katherine" I spoke, shaking your warm hand with my cold one.

After that, you sat beside me on the wooden bench. Looking over at the dogs that chased one another, then back to my eyes.
"Sorry if I am disturbing your peace. I thought it would have been silly of me to walk away and never get to see such beauty again."

I remember you saying, and how the words left your plump lips so passionately.
You were like an angel, sent from heaven
to protect my fragile soul.

Your squish-able cheeks rose as your smile never left your face. An earring dangled
from your left ear, and your tiny nose looked
so perfect to kiss.
I couldn't stop staring, admiring your beauty, it was only when you
called me out on it I stopped.

"I WASN'T STARING" I protested "woah, a bit defensive are we?" Your giggle instantly turned the anger and annoyance that boiled inside of me, to giddiness and the feeling of melting.

You were the most annoying, energetic  person I had ever met. You wouldn't stop asking me these stupid questions, like "do you eat spaghetti milk soup?" or "if you were a dinosaur, what kind would you be?"

But something made me stay, I never wanted to leave your side. Maybe it was your looks, or your voice. But I was drawn to you, no matter how much you talked or giggled.

"AHHH" you grabbed my arm and dragged me down with you on to the floor. I landed on you chest, groaning as I sat up, basically straddling you. "You klutz, how did you even-"you grabbed the hand I was using to hit your chest with.
"Can y-you get off, ple-ase" your voice was strained, and then I realised the position I was in.

Little did I know, that wouldn't be the last  time you would fall onto the ground even if you weren't even moving.

I love you so much
-Kitten <3