You sober up.
Your throat is sore and dry.
There is no light at the end of this tunnel, only eternal darkness.
You go for days thinking about your experiences with him.
But the drug is hard to find.
Your dealer was found by the cops, you are lost without him, you need that last piece of him.
All day all you can think about is your time with Misha.
His warm comforting touch.
It's all you need.
Misha makes you feel safe in his arms, but now without him your in a deep dark pit.
You need more, searching everywhere, crying out into the darkness of reality.
You know you should have started, cause now your hooked on the drug called Misha.
You haven't slept for days.
You haven't returned to your job.
You NEED it.
You've been hunting for it.
The drug.
The marvelous drug you once had never heard of.
It's destroyed your life, but you don't care. Misha's got you on the hook and there's no stopping now.
You wake up early in the morning sweating from the awful nightmares.
All you want is Misha.
To look into his beautiful blue eyes, to share soft spoken words as his thumb caresses your cheek.
He is the only one that can truly make you happy and you know it.
Nothing in the world is like him.
Finding more Misha is all you can think about.
It becomes and obsession.
Living without the drug is a nightmare.
You find yourself sobbing at odd hours of the day.
Everything is gray, you need your Misha.
Misha is the only thing your life is about.
You finally find a dealer.
You can't help yourself from buying large amounts.
You've spent your entire paycheck on Misha and you don't even care.
You just need it, that glimpse of Misha.
You take it once again.
Ahhh, that wonderful feeling of Misha,
you are one again thrown into an alternate universe.
You take in a deep breath of that familiar scent of fresh warm apple pie with hints of cinnamon.
You walk through an open door, light pouring out so you have to shield your eyes to see.
As your eyes adjust you see Misha standing before you, holding out his hand.
"I've been waiting", he says seductively.
You don't know what to do.
A warm feeling raises in you from the bottom of your toes, to the top.
"I've missed you", he says in a stutter.
You run towards him, greeting him with a caring embrace.
"Don't leave me again", he whispers in your ear.
"I promise I won't, I could never dream of it", you answer into his shoulder.
You don't let go for minutes.
When you finally do he put his hand on your cheek and looks you in the eye.
" I love you so much", he says, pulling you into a tighter embrace.
You love this wonderful feeling of Misha as he pulls you up to him.
"Let's go somewhere", he says.
You nod, following him to a beautiful beach, gulls in the background and waves licking at your feet, you want this memory to last forever.
You are alone with Misha.
You are holding hands.
You can't stop your heart from smiling.
It's like there's a warm blanket surrounding you, it's magical.
You stay until sunrise, laying in the sand, in his arms.
"I have a confession", he whispers softly in your ears. You look him deep in the eye.
"Yes", you answer softly. Holding his hands tight as he says:
"You are the only thing I ever think about. I want to spend the rest of my life with you."
You all of a sudden feel fuzzy and black out.
"I love you so much." He says
"I love you harder", you answer. "And I will spend the rest of my life with you."
"Promise you'll never leave me again", he whispers in your ear.
"Never", you answer him above the gentle sound of the waves coming up the shore.
This place is so wonderful, so perfect, so warm in Misha's arms but you know that you will need to take more soon in order to jeopardize you promise to him.
Reality is just around the corner.
SLASH
You're back.
Everything is grey, and you need to puke.
You find the nearest trash can, and then let it all out.
"Eww", a little girl says passing by.
You take it again.
You need to.
You don't abandon Misha, his lingering touch, it's what's keeping you alive.
You are finally back in his arms, you are still at the beach, the salty air soothing your skin.
Misha breaks the silence, "Come with me, I know a place were we won't be disturbed."
You follow him up the beach.
The soft sand getting in between your toes, but you don't mind.
You near a cave that has an outlook on the entire beach resting on the side of a sand hill.
He draws you closer into him as you walk in.
It isn't a scary creepy cave, like those you'd see in horror films, it's a comfortable one. It almost looks like Misha has created a makeshift home here.
You sit down at a fireplace with Misha at you side cuddling you.
" I made this place for you", he says, bringing you into a tighter embrace.
His arm slides down your back.
He falls onto his left knee.
"When I said I'm going to spend the rest of my life with you, I meant it. Will you marry me?" You fall into both knees and kiss him. His soft lips meet yours. He puts his hand on your cheek.
"Of course I will", you answer softly.
That feeling of his soft lips on yours, you don't care if this is real or not, it's good enough for you.
"I love you so much", you whisper into his ear, and brush back his hair.
Staring into his beautiful blue eyes know that with Misha you will always be happy, and that you will always be loved.
