"I've never been so wide awake
No, nobody but me can keep me safe
And I'm on my way."
• • •
Few days later
What seemed like a session on cue, inside the pastel corals of the psychiatrist's room, was a first meeting. Ironically a fine film of familiarity layered over their faces.
Dr.Ban closed the door of his personal doubts and attended to his new outpatient, with a refined and calm approach.
He revisited her name on his computer screen as he initiated the conversation.
Dr.Ban : So, Ms.Baek Dan Hwa, tell me what is in your head right now. What are you thinking?
Dan Hwa : "Was this man a psychiatrist?"
Caught a little off guard at her unexpected and straightforward response, the psychiatrist chuckled lightly.
Dr.Ban : Very specific. And it's appreciated. Well, if it's okay, can you tell me why were you here last time? Which doctor did you have an appointment with, if at all?
Dan Hwa : Oh, it was the psychologist next door, Dr.Pyo.
Dr.Ban : I see. But may I know the reason to your steps ending a little early today? Did he recommend you to a psychiatrist?
Dan Hwa : No. He didn't. "Hope to see you again next week," was what he said last.
Dr.Ban : So, you go to him still?
Dan Hwa : No. I didn't go back again. Maybe talk therapy was not what I was looking for.
Dan Hwa, latching her doors to a psychologist, lived a few days in contemplation. Crucified and afflicted by the pernicious effects of her lethal thoughts, her steps finally walked her down to the portal of the psychiatrist.
Looking for a quick and safer solution to her superficial travails of sleep deprivation. She prepared herself to answer all the questions that were coming her way. Therefore, Dan Hwa loosened her guards across the professional.
Dr.Ban : All right. Let me know what's troubling you.
Dan Hwa : I may have Insomnia. I can't sleep at night unless I take sleeping pills. And I don't want to depend on it for the rest of my life.
Dr.Ban : That's a very wise decision. It does sound like Insomnia. So, walk me through the span you have been having sleep problems.
Dan Hwa : I can't pin point the exact timeline. But, I happened to have an entire week of no work few months ago. Hence, I doubt it began since then. Or so it came to my light.
The psychiatrist while writing down a prescription for Dan Hwa, inquired her a little personally. He was considering all possible causes of her distress. And did not force a category to her infirmities. Instead Dr.Ban was open to deducing the root genesis.
Dr.Ban : Friends, love, work, family. Any stress factor associated with these? Or maybe any recent but big change that might've caused you any kind of instability.
The suppresed anxiety plunged right into her at those simple word tags. She clenched her fist under the table, trying to keep a straight face.
Dan Hwa : No-... I- I don't know.
Dr.Ban noticed her nervous stutters. The straightforward answers now seemed indecisive and uncertain. A very common symptom that indicated a propable discomfort with the fundamentals.
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