I'll Always be Here

Chapter One

Dear Diary,

2 September 2046

I have lost two of my closest friends now this stupid councilor is making me keep a stupid Diary to help me. I am sick and tired of people trying to help me, I just wanna be left alone, and Dylan won't stop texting me. I hate to say it but I do really miss talking with Dylan. I wish I could talk to him about everything, but I know he won't understand what I'm going though.

Love,

Mae ❤

"Mom I don't want to go to school." I whined from under my deep navy blue pillow and covers.

My mom sighing softly telling me "Hun you need to go to school, or you won't be able to get a good job or go to college, and I know your friends would never want that"

I let out a big sigh as I came out of my cocoon "Yes ma'am" I said knowing I wasn't going to win this battle. I got dressed in black skinny jeans a black Supernatural crop top along with my beanie and converse, starting to walk to school. With my luck I heard the voice of the boy I knew all too well, Dylan, I turned around to face him as he caught up. He enveloped me into a hug and whispered "Mae, please don't ignore me it hurts me seeing you like this" I looked into his eyes and pushed him away tears filling my eyes and streaming down my face, I hated seeing him like this, I ran away from him heading to where I hide from everyone. A small pond by the school, luckily no one ever comes here except for me.

When I finally got to school I walked to second period because I missed first period. I sat in Algebra I did my work quietly and finished before anyone else like usual, Dylan was looking at me sadly not doing his work. When the bell rang I got up and walked out to the hallway heading to the cafeteria, Dylan followed me calling my name I ignored him. During lunch this girl Chloe came up to me and started yelling about how I better stay away from her man, so I rolled my eyes walking past her. She then grabbed my arm and pinned me to a wall yelling at me calling me a useless girl she was about to hit me, but Dylan stepped in and caught her arm pulling her away from me. She pushed him away and glared at me before walking away, I sighed softly as I said "Thanks Dylan."

He smiled slightly and walked to me taking my hand into his "I want to be there for you, please Mae let me be there"

I pulled away "I'm sorry, I just want to be alone" I couldn't look at him as I walked away.

After school I went back to the pond and sat there pulling my headphones out playing my music. I sighed softly knowing why I couldn't stand him holding my hand, I've liked Dylan since I was little. I'm scared that I'll get hurt again and I know if Dylan rejected me I would be so crushed, I guess that's why they call them 'crushes' they can crush you sometimes. I sighed pulling out my Diary and turned to a new page and pulled out my pen and started writing.

Dear Diary,

5 September 2046

Hello, I guess I might as well write in you, right now I'm sitting in my little sanctuary. I am by the pond between school and my home. I really wish I could bring Dylan here he would love it, he would probably bring his Polaroid camera and be taking pictures trying to get one of me but I'd be hiding my face. As you know my two closest friends got in a car crash and died. I don't understand why they had to be taken away from me so quickly.

Love,

Mae ❤

Sitting looking at the foggy pond water, I realized I was crying again, wiping away the tears I laid on my back starring at the sky watching the clouds float by my music playing.

"I'm an angel with a shotgun,

Fighting 'til the war's won,

I don't care if heaven won't take me back.

I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe.

Don't you know you're everything I have?

And I wanna live, not just survive tonight.

Sometimes to win, you've got to sin.

Don't mean I'm not a believer.

And major Tom will sing along.

Yeah, they still say I'm a dreamer.

They say before you start a war,

You better know what you're fighting for.

Well, baby, you are all that I adore.

If love is what you need, a soldier I will be."

I sang along quietly, slowly growing louder as I sang.

"I'm an angel with a shotgun.

Fighting 'til the war's won.

I don't care if heaven won't take me back.

I'm an angel with a shotgun,

Fighting 'til the war's won,

I don't care if heaven won't take me back.

I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe.

Don't you know you're everything I have?

(I'm an angel with a shotgun)

And I want to live, not just survive

(Live, not just survive)

And I'm gonna hide, hide, hide my wings tonight.

They say before you start a war,

You better know what you're fighting for.

Well, baby, you are all that I adore.

If love is what you need, a soldier I will be."

When the song was over I heard some footsteps and a voice "You have always had such a pretty voice Mae."

Sitting up I looked at a tall and buff auburn haired blue eyed boy who had very defined facial features as he smiled at me, "Who are you and what do you want?" I growled as I stood up seeing the height difference, I have always been short being only five four, but he had to be at least six foot.

"That hurts Mae, don't you remember me it's Markus" He said smirking and walking closer to me. "My how much you have matured in just a five year span, sorry about lunch Chloe got jealous when she found out I was going to pay you a visit. Now back to you, your black silky hair is still as beautiful as I remember. I love the new length, short hair is a good look on you and your eye still the same bright emerald green" He said touching my cheek.

I got chills at his touch, I jumped back "Don't touch me, how did you find me no one knows that I come here." I said as I watched him shift positions shocked at my actions.

"Now Mae is that any way to treat and old friend and Ex?" He asked chuckling slightly "I moved back and heard what happened I just came to tell you I was sorry, and if you need anything I'm here"

"I don't need help from you, or anyone, just leave me alone. I don't want to see you ever again you hear." I yelled tearing up finally remembering the memory I tried so hard to forget.

He looked at her saying "What about the boy, Dylan, the one you have had a crush on since you guys were little. Have you grown apart from the boy who tried to fight me after breaking your small fragile heart?"

"Shut up" I yelled throwing my fist at him but stumbled and fell forward.

He caught me arm and pulled me up smirking at me. "I am guessing you haven't had your first kiss yet and you are in high school. Wonder how Dylan would feel if I stole it." He said and used his other hand to hold my chin forcing me to look at him.

I wiggled trying to get out of his grip, but he let go of me and said "Don't worry I won't steal it right now." He smirked and walked away leaving me alone, grabbing my things I hurried home teary eyed.