claustrophobic -Ray Hall

part 1 - arriving

Here we go again. I'm back in the hell hole i used to call home. Carp. Sheesh what a shit hole. I used to live here when i was younger. when my mum was around. i moved two months after my mum died and when I say moved i mean i got taken away from my abusive drunk of a father by child protective services. After my mum died my dad started drinking more than he used to, which is a lot. But it got to a point where he started getting angry and hen one day he just snapped and from that day on out he started to hurt me.

soon enough my friends parents noticed, because a nine year old shouldn't have burses all over their bodies. the sheriff was called and my dad got sent away to jail. don't hit your kids.  I was taken away by child protective services. they moved me out to Houston and i was picked. In now time my dads out and I'm now aloud to go live with him (not my choice). I'm now 17 and will be finishing my senior year in the small town Carp, Texas. I haven't seen anyone from my past life since i was 9 that's 8 years ago. i wonder if all my friends still live there.

I never tried reaching out. I was friends with Heather Nill i wonder what he's doing now. But right now i was driving in my nice Chevrolet Camaro that my foster parents kindly gifted me with as a leaving present they were the best. they loved me i loved them. And they were the most generous people especially to me. i have my windows on this humid day we have 6 weeks until schools out for summer. That's my 6 weeks to find more out about PANIC.

i turn off the highway and jeez Carp hasn't changed one bit. It's still the shit hole i remembered it being. my dad lives by the lake next to the one and only Ray Hall. He's always been a ass ever since kindergarten if you ask me it was defiantly the influence of his father who is in prison and is evil brother.  I turn onto the road. man this gives me bad deja vu. shit here come the bad memories. see here's the thing about me i have selective memory i will only remember things with a hint and this road is a massive hint. 

as i carried on down he dusty path i passed the sign for Hall Salvage yard. I made a left turn and here he was my biggest fear. my father. I turned off my car and got out casually. He's on the front porch. i start to walk up ton the front porch. "There she is the one the only drum role please." he took a pause to make a drum role with his hands. "Arabella Bridget." he said acting as if i was in the wrong and i was the one to blame. "hello to you too dad long time no see." i said stating the obvious. "Boy have you grown up look at you. wat are you now 15 16?" he asked politely. maybe he has changed but he doesn't even know my age. "17 dad". i said walking closer i went up to him and just stood there. he initiated a hug and i obviously wouldn't reject it. But he didn't mean this hug it was too awkward.

"So how you been kid sine you know you moved?" he questioned and looked me up and down. "Good thanks for asking. how has life a free man been?" i said doing the same and looking at him and he looks better than he did before and i think he has actually changed. he look behind me at my car and just smirks. "Yeah it's been good the halls have been helping me settle back in that boy you used to know Ray Hall he's nice. and would you look at that. it's a nice car ow did you get that?" i turned looking at my car the dust leaving a trail meaning i would have to wash her later. " Yeah she's my baby. My foster parents got her as a going away present. you would like them they are super sweet."

And with that y dad and i stopped talking and went to go get my bags from the trunk. we walked into the house and when i say it was exactly the same i wasn't joking. We made our way up the stairs and to the room that has always been mine since we moved to thins house when i was 3. it was still the same. purple walls, big windows, on suit bathroom and my signature floral bedsheets.  "Em i haven't touched this room since you lived here so we ca  redo it if you  want some new paint new furniture maybe?" he looked at me with hope i didn't answer i just walked around the room reminiscing over memory's hat were made when i was younger. 

"I think i like it more like this it reminds me of good times with you and ......" i paused looking at my dad with tears welling in my eyes. "Mom." it was barely a whisper. I haven't talked about her since i was passed off my therapy sessions with Dr Clark. my dad walked up to me and gave me a big loving hug the first one since mum was around. "I miss her too bear." he used the nickname he gave me when I was 4 he calls me bear because i once called him a bear when he didn't shave and grew out a stubble beard. it's cute how he still remembers and uses it. he left me to settle in so when he left i started unpacking and grabbed some new bed sheets from my bad they were my new favourite they were white with peaches on it and it came with patching billow cases. 

after unpacking everything i grabbed my laptop and started writing making notes on stuff in general like stuff i need for my room and stuff about the town and my dad. then my phone buzzed i had gotten a text message from a random number. it said hey newbie why you living with my neighbour. And with that i knew it was the one the only Ray Hall. The devil of Carp well the devil of Carp would be PANIC or the creator of it.

i opened my phone and texted back saying. I'm no stranger do you not recognize me old *friend. i waited a while and got a response. ahhh old friend you do look different Bella you must have grown. he replies jokingly. haha very funny Ray more than my height has changed why you stalking me is still haven't seen you. I waited and he took his time replying jeez what is he doing. oh don't worry abut that open your window. And with that i got up and opened my blinds to be met with his face and boy had he grown into his looks. I opened my window and he scrambled in. 

"You weren't joking when you said not just your height had changed." he stared strait at my boobs and they trailed downwards as he mentally undressed me. "You done staring yet Hall I'm getting bored." i said shifting my weigh on my feet. "Yeah i think I'm done now." he said with a shit eating grin on his face. "So lets skip all the greeting formalities shall we?" i nodded and sat don on my bed getting comfortable. "jeez already giving yourself too me that easily" he joked making me throw my pillow at him.

from outside my room we could hear footsteps making there way up the stairs i quickly pushed ray out of the window and shut it without giving him time to say anything to protest. my dad walked in with a sweet smile on his face and said "dinners ready bear come down when your ready to eat." "Yeah i will be down in a minute." i said back when he left i fell onto my be and let out a deep sigh. My phone buzzed again. goodnight doll see you at school tomorrow.