I was just trying to be happy..

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The lady told her "James has been dead for almost a year now, he hung himself". Jessica was so pissed that no one
told her. She told her brother that is now 16 "I'm leaving if I don't come back take care of the kids okay?"
He replied "Is everything okay Jessica?" She hugged him and said "I love you remember that k".
She left and rented a hotel room and got a razor blade, sat in the tub, and cut her wrist and sat there in a tub watching her skin open up and the blood flow out of her arms... It was so numb and she could remember what all those people had told her before "Your ugly, fat, worthless, nasty" and how the students in her class would tell her "Shit if you killed yourself who would care?? Haha not me!" All she could think was "How can I be so stupid?! No on will miss me anyways" Then she saw her mom and she grabbed her hand and told her "It's almost over". Jessica couldn't feel anything anymore everything was numb. She didn't know what to think anymore, but that it's almost over. She looked around the room and then at her wrist and it took all the power she had left to grab the knife and put it to her neck and dig it into her skin.. She could feel the way it was ripping through her skin inch by inch. Then she started to feel the blood go down her neck she was feeling nothing but numbness though. She was begging God to end her life..
She said "Please please just end it now!!" A few seconds later she got up and looked at her body laying there in the tub and she took her mothers hand, and together they walk with to the most beautiful place ever... Then her brother walks in and grabs her and can't say anything. She notices the letter and starts to read it...