Our story stared exactly one year ago, June 7th 2020, what a change in my life he made, that didn't even got through my mind.
Let the story begin...
I knew him way back, but i just couldn't stand him, he once had a thing with one of my friends and, let me tell you, she was crazy about him but she didn't knew why. He would always ghost her, refusing going out and all of those fuckboys things. I didn't liked him because he was, you can say, annoying my friend, and because while he was talking to her, he would always bring me up, things like how am I like a person. Basically he used my friend to get information about me.
After a long while, my friend, we would call her Daisy, called me and asked me to come over because she was with her boyfriend and to have a drink. I knew something was suspicious, because they usually spent their time alone, and obviously not with just me, at a drink. That would be too much for me to handle, and so i decided to ask her what is really going on there, at first she didn't wanted to tell me, but i had to know, and so she texted me that He was there and wanted me to come too. As soon as I heard that, I told her "You know I can't stand him, i would've come probably, if he wasn't there". Like on this level of "hate".
That happened at the end of carantine, the beginning of May 2020.
Then, things got a turn. I was at someone's home, a girl party kind of thing, and honestly i was really bored, and he just happened to reply to my story on Instagram(yes this is how we stared talking, IT WAS 2020 DONT MIND ME). I just liked his reaction and he quickly asked for my Snapchat, I agreed and gave it to him, and so we stared talking.
At first I was such a bitch, first of all, because that is my personality, and second, because that was the attitude that he deserved. But after literally one hour or so, we really clicked and we stared talking like we knew each other for years. I was so surprised, and deep down I knew that we really got along like I never did with anyone, but I just didn't want to accept it.
A few weeks went by, and we've been talking all day and all night, he asked me everyday if i wanted to go out with him, but i kept making up excuses to say no, because no one knew we stared talking, I even hide it from my bestfriend, because I was, you can say, ashamed of it.
But one time, i really had the time, and i wanted to go out with so bad so I colassped. We went out, in his car, and we stayed till morning, he didn't stop talking and was really funny, but i just couldn't be myself. He was very intimidating to me, but i didn't know why I just had a block. I am a very social person, and I talk all the time, its part of my personality trait, but with him it was different.
One date. That was all it took. After that, we went out every night, till morning. We didn't miss a day for a month.
I caught feelings. Strong feelings. I was in love. I couldn't believe that i fell for this boy, but the heart wants what it wants, and I just couldn't reject it.
Of course, after one month of happiness and joy, things were too good to be true, as always. He stared being distant, and i quickly notice it, but I just didn't had the courage to say something. We were distant with each other, we disconnected and I was really affected by it.
We didn't talk anymore, we grew apart so quickly that I just couldn't believe how people can change that fast. I was devastated. But i kept it in, kept a happy face with everyone, but deep down I had an enormous frustration.
He would sometimes reply to my snaps,but that was it. Till one day. I was at a swim pool with my friends, having a good time, until I saw him coming. But not alone. He was with his ex. My heart stared beating so fast. I was really disappointed, in me, only in me, because I let my self fall for him, knowing how he was, disappointed because i created so many scenarios in my head about him. Simply disappointed in my feelings.
I saw him, he saw me, said hi, and that was all. But i didn't let it ruin my day, so i moved on, until I got home, and deleted him from every social media. After a few days he noticed, and asked me if i deleted him and i responded simply "Yes".
Weeks went by, without him, i was doing fine, but when the night came, i wasn't.
He was back with his ex, she was a weakness for him. They were together on and off for 2 years, so I just couldn't compete with her. They had history, memories and strong feelings between them.
So I decided to let him go, so I did, hard, had my bad days, but i got through it. Spend my summer with friends, trying to enjoy summer as much as I can.
In the meantime, while with my friends, while with my family, all I could think about was Him. I was so hurt deep down, that I even dyed my hair ( girls, you know the drill ) , and I started to slowly move on. Had my period of "shine" I could say, where everything seemed to get back to normal, finally. I just can't express how hurt and especially disappointed I was, and we were not even together, just dating.
As I said, things were going great(ish), so I knew this was not going to last. And as I predicted, as it happened.
One night, me and my girlfriends planned to have a drink at my place, I just knew, that gut feeling in me was never that strong as it was then, especially in that night. I could sense that He was close, not physically, but mentally I felt like he was right there with me. I was blown. I couldn't believe I was right this whole time.
Guys, He came back!
