Letters

Dear Past Me

Dear Past Me,

Hi. So I'm quite awkward and you already know this so who knows why I'm explaining myself but you should know that this part of your life is probably the hardest thing your gonna go through

Sorry.

You lost someone really important to you right before you embarked on your junior high quest, and your closest friend just moved away. You have a few others, but you don't really know them that much yet. Honestly you kinda just feel lonely.

It's hard. I've been there. I'm still sometimes there.

It's really cheesy to say "it gets better", but it really does. Just give it a little bit of time. You're gonna meet someone who is gonna end up meaning a lot to you, even though neither of you are gonna realize it at first. They might be one of the best things that happen to you that year, and still are now.

You're gonna go through more downs, like one of your other longest friends deciding you're not worth their time anymore, but with some downs come some ups.

You meet some teachers (I know...teachers) who are actually pretty cool. Some who you wish you still had contact with now, 2 years out of high school (literally, at the time of writing it has just passed two years recently). You also meet some more people who you call friends in high school, friends who you've seen recently or plan to see soon.

In your time, there's a point where you decide to download an fashion app (literally what was I thinking) and somehow, that app also leads you to meeting someone who has now lasted 4 platform communication changes with you. All from a fashion app that's now deleted (oops another down sorry)

Things are okay now. They are far from perfect though. You still have some very lonely days where you just feel like everyone has decided they have someone better then you and you kinda just wanna curl up into a ball and ignore the outside world but you persevere. Your friends talk to you (regularly too!). Who needs a boyfriend or girlfriend (tehe) when you have friends who care about you? Yeah dating seems cool but your not any less awkward trust me. You have enough fun with your friends, don't go embarrassing yourself in front of a crush, and you can figure that one out, no need to give any more spoilers.

Wow I am just cruel to you. Telling you your life sucks and then not giving you any tells into your life now. I'd want to punch future me (now me?) in the face, I hate cliffhangers.

Speaking of cliffhangers, please put yourself out of your misery and watch fantasy shows at a young age. Your favorite show doesn't come out for like another year or two, but realizing you like magical worlds now will save you so much time.

I was gonna make a comment of how cool it would be if you could actually read this letter in your time but I didn't even have this app at the time I imagine past me reading this so that's out the window. At least future me gets the luxury to read this on here in the future, y'know if I don't forget about it, which is way too likely.

Anyways I kinda think I'm rambling now (I think I rambled throughout this entire letter, it has no right being 600 words). Now to freak out about posting it even though it really doesn't matter. Not like I was specific enough about things for someone to pull themselves out unless they actually experienced said event. I look forward to seeing this in the future even though it's addressed to the past!

Sincerely,
L