"WHAT?! AGAIN?!" you screamed out of shock, and the guy in front of you is the reason of it. He scratched the back of his neck smiling in embarrassment, as if he got used to this situation he is right now.
"What? I've always been dumped. What's with the surprised look?" He laughed it off. You face palmed and looked back at him.
"Jake, seriously. How many times should I have to tell you? Look before you confess." Yes , he got dumped...again, for the nth time. A part of you is a little disappointed for him, and a part of you feels somehow happy about it.
You have feelings for Jake for a long time. And since you are friends with him, you're trying your best to conceal it, so he won't know. And it breaks your heart when he tells you that he likes someone else. In fact, he had tried and confessed to a lot of pretty girls, and unfortunately he got dumped by all of them.
Mixed emotions. That's what you have. You don't know how to feel, anger, disappointment or sadness. Anger, for not letting him know how you really felt. Disappointment, for he doesn't realize what he means for you. And sadness, for he feels that way.
You feel a pity for those who dumped him just like that. I mean, he is Shim Jake, the man in your dreams. Who are they to reject the person you admire a lot?
In the present, you are hanging out and talking at the tree house your father built at the back of your house in the backyard. Jake and you are neighbors, and of course, best friends. Ever since your family moved in their neighborhood, next to their house to be exact, you and Jake became friends instantly for you both have a lot of things in common. As time passes, your feelings for him grew and grew.
Every person have their wishes, and for you, it is that for Jake to notice you. You wish in every star for that. But, in reality, you knew it is a wish that cannot be granted. He sees you as a friend..only. Period.
"Y/n~ssi." He whined as he stretch his arms and layed on your lap, hands at his tummy, and closed his eyes. Here it goes again. Your heart flutters as you look at his features closely as can be, you could kiss him. The feelings that you have been hiding for too long can anytime explode and be revealed. You brushed his hair, as you smile towards the young man. You wish this would last. You can't have him, but you are lucky enough to be friends with him. If it were not for, you won't be having him like this, up close, having the every right to be his best friend.
You shrugged the thought of and stopped brushing his hair when he talked. "Nah. Maybe I should give up." You stare blankly to him.
He moved out of your lap and start to change position, his arms supporting his back, in the level that he could reach your face enough closely. He stared at your eyes, you felt your face heat up, but you can't do anything, because one wrong move, your lips will touch his. He smiled at you cheekily.
"What do you think?" He said, tilting his head, still smiling at you. You flinch, as you feel your heartbeat race faster than it normally does. You hummed in response. You couldn't make any move, because of your awkward positions. He chuckled as he get up and fix himself before offering a hand you took to get up. He is still laughing at your poker face. You looked away being annoyed for real this time.
"I don't know. It's your choice, and your life anyways." I rolled my eyes and started to walk out of the tree house. You could still feel his silent laugh from your back as he follows you. Your mom called the both of you for dinner so you both decided to go out.
"It's not that I'm giving up looking for." He said as he catch up to you. "I just think I've found her." Those words halted your steps, and let him go on. He notices it and looked back at you wondering. Man! This is for the nth time your feeling your heart breaking to pieces. Why won't I get used to it? You thought.
