• Look how we broke so perfectly • [ A Jeon Jungkook Fanfiction - Female Lead ]

Why?!

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"Why me...WHY IT'S ALWAYS ME?!" 

I screamed as I slide down the wall. Life is always cruel when it comes to me. Heart breaks , hurtful words  , broken promises, lies..

"Why did he love me when he will leave me like others ?! " I said , it reminded me of that day near the clif .

On that chilly night , him and me , holding hands ,  our body heat is the only source of warmth . There he said " never think that I would leave u my lil kitten , cuz that would never happen . You are me and I am you ....so how can leave my self?"

I laughed  and then I gave a small smile . He is so precious I thought . He needs to be protected at all cost, I thought . Now he broke me . Into pieces which can't be glued together .

I came back to reality as my sobs aren't going to end any soon . I got up and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water . I need to forget him like how I forget other who hurted me...but how? This isn't a parent or friend ship relationship. Which was atleast easy to forget .

I thought while staring at the teddy bear my bestie gave on my bday. Then I started to walk to my room . I searched my cupboards and drawers . There I got the thing I got.....

The first picture we got together . My bestie , cherry took this pic...I still get that feeling of happiness when I see him  . How can this guy break me and then make me fall into love..? He sure be a magician .

I sniffed . I miss her too . She's now busy on studies..here me doing nothing in my life but get heartbroken . I better get ready and look normal before he notices. I don't want him to know I know he doesn't love me or want me anymore . It hurts to act . But it hurts more to show .

"I better go shower..." I said in a teary tone as my body don't even have the strength to talk . I dragged my feets to the bathroom with a towel on my shoulder .

• 10 Mins later •

I got out of the shower and faced my vanity mirror . My face looks so pale like I didn't ate for weeks . I then searched for my phone . It was on my bed . I opened it to see a pic of us . Smiling cheekily .  A tiny smile was about to appear on my face but I brushed it off and opened the phone . I saw there were two messages from messenger . I opened it hoping it's not him . Thankfully it's cherry .

" Yo! Long time no chat . Sorry I didn't text you . You know ... studies and exams . Anywayz how are you and your boyfie?? Any good news?"

My smile dropped to the ground when I saw the word " your boyfriend" he isn't my boyfriend or lover any more... Well they don't know what's happening to us . So I can't be upset on that . Cherry had a break to text me . She must be stressed up. I'll talk to her in min by calling her . But Lemme go get myself something to eat .