When I'm upset.
I shut myself down.
I have no motivation for anything.
I tell myself that nobody cares,
Even though I know some do.
I think about all the negative things I could possibly think of.
I give myself all the pain,
Thinking I deserve it.
I'm not sure why I do that,
But that's just how I am.
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