"Why did we decide to watch 'Friday the 13' on Friday the 13?" Jake asks me, shaking his head in amusement.
i shrug and press play, ready to be scared by freddy kruger once again.
I grabbed the Blanket, pulling over the both of us. Not even half way through the movie my eyelids started to fall slightly and a small yawn falls from my lips. My head started to fall slightly to the side, falling into Jakes shoulder.
*
I wake up due to loud breathing in my left ear. With a slight turn i'm greeted by Jakes face ever-so close to mine.
'Did we? No! Get your head outta the gutter, Jake loves Ella Cole and you have no chance with him anyway.' I think, mentally slapping myself. 'We just watched a movie, that's all. And all it will ever be.'
With that, Jake starts shifting under the blanket. I quickly push my head against the pillow and close my eyes, not wanting him to know i'm awake. I can't face him just yet.
He doesn't try to wake me up, he just pushes past my legs and exits the lower bunk with an "oomph" of effort. I wonder if he brought me to his bunk or i decided to crawl in here after the movie. Both seemed quite far fetched, but for some reason both sound like something we'd do.
With a close of the door, I try and eavesdrop on Jake's conversation with everyone currently awake. For a moment, all I hear is the sound of cabinets closing and the fridge opening. Then the chatter of the morning starts.
"I'm confused." Jakes says. 'Great opening statement.' I think, shuffling around to find a better place to hear.
"Why?" Someone says, probably Ash.
"I love Ella Cole. I really do. But last night Jinxx feel asleep on my shoulder during Friday the 13, and I honestly felt something I haven't with her." Jake rambles, then pauses, then continues. "He's my best friend. Maybe I was just a bit buzzed off beer. Never mind."
Then the room goes silent, which probably my que to come in.
The smell of coffee drifts through the bus. I unwillingly get up and walk out into the so called 'kitchen' and there stood Jake in only his sweatpants, exposing his tattooed chest; and I have to say he has abs, like holy shit. My eyes slightly check him out, but once I get up to his face he is giving me a weird look.
"Like what you see, Jinxxy?" He questions me, a playful look in his eyes,
I just looked down at my feet and mutter,
"You wish, Jake."
A deep chuckle developed from his chest as he throws his head back, turning away and walking over to the dinner table. Sitting out on the couch was a sleepy CC, a still half-drunk Ashley, and Andy was just coming out of the bunk area. They all look like the living dead.
"We have a show tonight," Andy starts as he rubs his baby-blues in exhaustion. "better get started on prepping."
All of us nod a bit, still a bit slow due to lack of coffee in all of our systems. I sighed, walking back over to the bunk area, grabbing a pair of old ripped skinny jeans and a misfits tank top. I pull back my hair. My thoughts went back to a shirtless jake and a small blush tints my cheeks.
"Don't make it obvious, Jinxx." I tell myself, playing with my dangling bangs. He can't know, not until I'm ready to face the truth myself. How does that "Frozen" song go?
Conceal, don't feel. Don't let them know.
And with that annoying song in my head, I exit the bunkers and try to prepare myself for the day.
*
Adrenaline kicks in as the loud screams of "Black Veil Brides" echo the venue. We all give each other an assuring nod, and with that, CC starts walking up to his drum kit. Thousands of fans start screaming as all of us come in one at a time.
CC, Myself, Jake, Ashley and Andy.
"Hello Calgary!" Andy says into his handheld microphone. Girls lunge toward the part of the stage where he's standing, trying to touch him and drag him in the crowd. "We are Black Veil Brides."
CC counts us down, "5,4,3,2,1!"
*
I run across the stage, greeting fans with the smile that seems to pull at their heartstrings. Some scream, others cry and most wave. I smile and flip my hair about alongside Jake, who was sticking his tongue out at a fan who was getting taken out of the crowd, but is now doing the same thing as I.
*
All 5 of us exit the stage at the same time. People chant our names, but the show is over. Time to go home for them, and back on the tour bus for us.
"Lets go eat, I'm starved." Jake says, wiping the sweat off his forehead.andy places a hand on his shoulder
"Jake your always hungry. You're like a bottomless pit." Laughs Andy and the rest of bvb, except jake, he just pouted. My heart fluttered a little at his puppy dog eyes. I look away, blankly staring at our surroundings, trying to distract myself from blushing.
"I'm not that hungry, i'll just go back to the bus. You guys go on. " I say loud enough for them to hear before I walk away to the bus.
I exit the back door, greeting by around 100 fans standing behind metal barriers. I wave to some fans before I enter our tour bus.
"Jinxx! Jinxx! Jinxx!" I can hardly hear the fans yell, even though it's obvious they're yelling as loud as its possible.
With a grunt and a black sharpie now in my hand, I go back into the minus 10 weather. My ass was freezing, but if they were going to come and support us and then after that stand outside and wait to meet us, I owe them that. I love the army.
Not even 7 minutes after I start meeting everyone, Ashley struts out in his winter coat. The army starts freaking out, banging on the barriers and screaming his name. The same reaction they had with me. It made me feel amazing, seeing all of their smiles and some tears. I gave some hugs out to some fans that have been waiting out for a while.
"How are you guys not cold?" I ask two girls. One with brown hair and Andy's scars and the other with Andy's black line and blond hair. The blond girl shrugs.
"I'm Canadian, I've stood out in minus 25 without a jacket. Oh you Californian folk." She says, laughing. I join in and chat them both up, giving them both hugs after. The brown haired one was slightly shy, her eyes were glossy. I give them both a smile before meeting other fans, promising to get pictures later.
I quickly say "hi" to Ashley as I pass him, trying to move around him and his huge jacket.
*
Right before I'm about to go back to the tour bus for a couple minutes, Jake comes outside to meet fans. I smile and turn around and see him talking to the same girls as I was earlier.
The blond one seems to be on the verge of tears, maybe because Jake means a lot to her, or the streetlight is making her look that way. I have no clue. The brunette is smiling her face off as Jake talks to the both of them about something funny because all three of them start laughing.
For some reason I wish I was over there with them.
So my body starts walking toward the 3 after I tell the people waiting I'll be a minute. The brunette is the first one to realize that I'm walking toward them, so she grips the blonds shoulder and points to me.
I do a silly pose and they laugh again, causing Jake to look. He smiles at me and waves me over.
"Hey Jinxx." He says, draping his arm over my shoulder. The girls stand on the other side of the metal separating us, speechless.
"That's Bailee," Jake says in admiration, gesturing to the blond, "and thats Kensley." He smiles at her.
Jake says their names with such love and appreciation I get a bit envious. Which is weird because I live with the guy. I wish I had more with Jake, but he loves Ella Cole.
"Don't tell anyone else this, Kensley, Bailee, but you're my favourite fans I've met tonight." I say, smiling brightly at them.
Bailee gets a bit weak in the knees and Kensley starts waving her hands up and down to stop her tears, which I find kinda cute.
Jake looks at me. "What about me, Jinxx?" He chuckles.
"Yes, you too. Obviously." I laugh at his cute puppy dog face, even though its melting my heart. I looked over at the girls, Kensley is gripping onto Bailee's arm slightly as a small tear falls from down her cheek. She gives Bailee this knowing look with a smile as she smiled right back at her. They shipped Jake and I.
"Girls, wanna come backs to our bus with us? Like we said earlier, we wanna continue the party with Calgary." I invite them, with Jakes smile plastered on his face I can tell he wants them to accept.
"S-sure!" Kensley says, shaking Bailee a bit from excitement. They really love our band and appreciate us, I can tell just by looking at them they're considerate of all of us, not Andy.
Once the security tells everyone to leave after we pretend to go on the bus. I can see the two chatting amongst themselves, giggling a bit and then screaming.
I feel ya, girlfriend. I think in my most stereotypical gay voice, which makes me crack up a bit.
Once everyone is out of sight except for the girls, I open the bus door and sneak out, even though the boys know they're coming already.
First, I help Bailee over the barriers. She grabs my shoulders tight and hugs my neck. We both take a second to let everything sink in, today has been a huge experience for us both, for different reasons.
Then Kensley grabs my shoulders and wrap her arms around my neck a bit more looser than Bailee. She whispers a "thanks" before we all parade into the bus again.
When we first enter it, they gape in awe. Not just at the members, but at the interior design that we've all pitched in on.
"Welcome, fans!" CC yells, almost spilling his Jack Daniels on the sofa. The two look over at him, giggling slightly. They wave as they sit on the right side of the table, nearest to everyone.
Andy and Ashley stumble in, smiling their pretty-little faces off. They obviously had some beer.
"Everyone, Kensley and Bailee." I introduce, gesturing to the girls staring at Andy in love. They all wave and say a heart warming "hello."
Kensley gripped onto Bailee's arm, tugging it slightly whispering something to her. They both nodded, I cocked my eyebrow at them slightly. Kensley just waved her hand telling me it was nothing.
Ashley walks over and sits beside Bailee and puts his arm around her.
"Hey, I met you earlier." He says, looking at her in a playful way.
She nods, trying not to cry. "Yup. You did, I'm sorry I was so awkward."
Ashley smiles at her and brushes her hair out of her eyes. "I've had worse. Once someone came running up to Andy and I and they couldn't speak. They just flailed their arms around."
We all crack up at the memory. Kensley gets a bit choked up, so I give CC the look to tell him to go comfort her. He obeys and copies Ashley's actions.
"You girls hungry?" Jake asks, walking over to the fridge. They nod and watch him pull out leftovers. "Chicken, Pork, or salad?"
Bailee chooses salad (shes a vegetarian) and Kensley chooses chicken. Jake chucks the salad container to Ashley, which gives it to her. As she indulges herself, Kensley waits for her food.
Kensley picked at her food, slightly laughing with all the guys along with Bailee. I have to say these girls in my opinion they are beautiful. They have that thing you call true beauty, they don't hide behind make up.
I was snapped back from my daydream by a sweet laugh coming from Bailee.
She might become my replacement for Jake. I just need to make a move, but Ashley is making it hard to do so. My blood started to boil as jealousy bubbled in my tummy. I looked down at my hands slightly, preparing myself for the worst. The two people I have a remote crush on will be in love with someone else. My heart shattered slightly as I stand up and walk to the back of the bus.I didn't know that Kensley followed me until I felt a small hand on my back.
"J-Jinxx, are you okay?" whispers a soft sweet voice from behind me. I shake my head. I look up at Kensley and her face is full of sorrow and worry. Her hand starts to rub small circles on my back.
"She'll. He'll. No one will ever want me."
"Yes, one of them will because you are amazing. "
I sigh and bury my head deeper into my hands. Only Sammi has loved me more than the others, but she found that jock at a bar.
"I'm not as amazing as Ashley or Andy. The two heartthrobs of BVB." I cry, exhaling harshly.
Kensley "tsks" at me, slightly shaking her head.
"Thats not the point, Jinxx. You are handsome. And besides, Bailee's favourite member isn't either of them. It's you and Jake." She says in a reassuring tone, which makes me gain a bit of confidence.
Maybe she's right. I am over analyzing all this. Obviously I am Jake's best friend, and according to Kensley, I'm Bailee's favourite member. Maybe this will go well for me.
I stop hunching and straighten my posture. Which a deep breath I ask Kensley, "is Bailee single?" Her eyes brighten up as she smiles at me, nodding.
"yes she is, and you know what? I ship it. " She chuckled, patting my back. My face heated up and she "awed" at me. I laugh at her.
"You're such a fangirl." I chuckle. She pouts and hit my shoulder.
"What you you expect? I'm on the bus with the band that saved me and many others, and one of them likes my best friend! So of course I'm gonna fangirl!" she said, throwing her hands around while she explained..
With temporary pride booming in my chest, we walk back to where everyone is. I'm gonna get the girl, and possibly make Jake a bit jealous.
*
Everyone was laughing and having a good time. Kensley was sitting alone on the floor and Bailee was sitting in between me and Ashley, who had his arms around her again. Andy was sitting at the kitchen table with beer in his hand, and CC was beside him drinking a monster.
A yawn escapes Bailee's lips and she leans on Ashley's shoulder, which makes my jealousy return. I can tell Ashley knows, because he looks at me with a "haha" look, but then he realizes how much I want this.
"Psst, Bailee. Go lean on Jinxx, I'll be back in a second." Ashley whispers, nudging her head softly. She slowly transports her body to my side, and when I feel her touch I remembered this is real.
I've saved peoples lives, inspired them, made them feel like they belong on this earth. All across the world people see me and say "That's Jinxx, his band Black Veil Brides saved my life." And I haven't mean a fraction of them, the BVB army. Through all these tours, we're still missing people. I just wish they all lived in a single location.
What snaps me back to reality is Bailee wrapping her arms loosely around my torso. I look at Kensley and she nods at me, her eyes read "MAKE A MOVE BEFORE YOU LOSE!!!!!"
I give her a knowing look and lean a bit on Bailee, making us look like we're snuggling. She makes a happy noise and tightens her grip on my body, making me go a bit red. Andy notices and mouths "get some," and I laugh slightly.
At around 1:30 we all start to wind down and go back to the bunks. Kensley trails Jake into the bunkers and thats the last thing I remember seeing.
*
When I wake up, I'm laying across the couch with Bailee, who is squirming. Like I did the morning before, I shut my eyes and pretend to sleep to see if she tries to awaken me.
"Jinxxy, get up." She mutters, pushing my chest a bit. I do a convincing groan and shift around, which makes her giggle.
I reopen my eyes, this time waiting for them to get used to the morning rays of Calgary. With a grunt, I push my hands underneath me and lift my own weight up. Right as I do, Jake comes in from the bunk.
"Morning sleepies." He smiles as he slumps to the coffee machine. I yawn and do some sort of noise, then stretch.
"M-morning Jake." I stutter.
Bailee looks back over at me and laughs a bit. "You got some makeup here." She gestures to my whole face. Sighing, I grab the closest phone to me and flip the camera on.
Black lines scatter my pale skin and foundation splotches freckle my forehead. Just great, just great. I think as I turn the phone back off.
The phone -which is actually mine- starts getting spammed on Twitter, which is weird because I haven't tweeted within the last 12 hours. So out of curiosity, I open it up to see a photo of Bailee and I sleeping with the caption "@baileeieroway and @jinxxBVB taking a casual snooze."
"CC!" I yell, rushing to the bunk area. I slam the wooden door behind me, making the 4 who are still sleeping jump. "What the hell?" I question, gesturing to my phone's seemingly infinite Twitter notifications.
All four of them look up me and start chuckling, as if I just figured what 1+1 is. (It's 2 by the way) CC unlocks his phone and goes to his photos to show me 11 other pictures on his phone from last night. All of me sleeping and Bailee beside me.
"What's so funny?" I ask, practically begging for the answer. Kensley gets out of the spare bunk and guides me to the bathroom and closes the door behind us.
"They think it's cute, not funny. Trust me, if they thought it was funny my best friend and their best friend liked each other, they wouldn't have necessarily seen the sun again." She says in a sweet tone, like she's talking about chocolate. I nod and we exit the bathroom and walk past the boys and into the living/kitchen room.
*
The girls get dressed and give us our pyjamas back, or at least try too.
"Keep them as a memory of us if we never see each other again, I insist." I smile as I slightly shove the pair of grey Calvin Kleins and an extremely faded black veil brides shirt. Bailee smiles back and tucks them into her Volcom bag. Kensley does the same.
"Crap! It's 12:10!" We gotta go, our ride is waiting for us!" Kensley exclaims, practically throwing on her leather jacket. Bailee follows her lead, except being a bit more delicate.
Before they officially leave our lives, I nonchalantly put a stickynote pad on the counter with a pen attached. Thankfully Bailee notices and writes her social media and phone number, along with her best friends.
"Thanks for everything. I'd never even think I'd see you guys live, but now I got to spend a night in THE Black Veil Brides' tour bus." Kensley admits, shyly looking down at her combat boots. Bailee nods in agreement and they're off, and so are we.
*
"You know what? No matter how long we tour here, I'll never get used to how cold it is in Canada. Like bloody hell, how do they live?" Ashley yells, rubbing the sides of his winter coat. We all simultaneously groan in agreement as we watch each other's breath and cigarette smoke.
My mind drifts back to Bailee, my face heats up as I bite my lip slightly. I've gotta do this show, for her. She was so beautiful under the street lights and when I woke up, her face lit up like the fourth of July. She makes me feel fuzzy, like all my hatred and anxiety melts away when she looks at me.
"Lets do this, for everyone who is alone. For the people who look to us as a direction. We are the BVB army." Andy yells as we do the chant.
Before I go on I text Bailee a simple "hey :)" and we're off. Edmonton welcomes off and we kick of the night with Goodbye Agony.
*
The night blows me away. Seeing all the fans singing along word for word. They're all here because of us.
Every night, this is what I do. I change the world.
