Jason

prologue

"Belle, don't you think it's better if you tell him the truth? There's no point if you keep lying about it" my bestfriend spat her harsh words to me. She probably must have felt she said the right thing and that might be justifiable, but everything she keeps saying about the situation makes me want to punch her hard on the face. A pretty face, I must admit. I often wonder if she really was my bestfriend or my mom. I bit hard on my lower lip starring at my phone like I wasn't listening to her. Well I knew I must have exasperated her at that moment because I didn't pay attention to what she was saying, but she needs to keep her mouth shut at times. "Aren't you going to say something belle? You're just going to snub and act like it's none of your business like you always do?"
"Do you like him Jessie?" I raised my head, clearly angry from the interrogations. My question startled her "You're crazy belle, we all know you're into him, so why would I fall for a guy who I know my bestfriend secretly admires" she rose her two hands up in the air clearly frustrated. I knew I made a mistake for telling belle about him, but I thought we were bestfriends. I stood up from my bed and walked up to her standing frame. she stood there frowning as if she had been denied dinner for the past two days. "It's not what you think Jessie" I bit down hard on my lip and licked them. "I don't like him" she looked at me like I had grown two heads overnight. it was so evident that she didn't believe me. "Well, it's not like I don't like him, but I just admire him from afar, that's all Jessie" I threw my distracting hair backwards in order to talk to her well. " Yeah, he's cute, tall, fair, and has a great body. And any girl will be lucky to have him in their lives, but the truth is, I'm not interested. I can't be nothing more than a weird nerd to him. So....." I thought of what to say before I continued "stop thinking that way, please!" My voice increased in a harsh tone. She looked at me in disbelief. Well at that point that was the only look I could figure out on her face. She walked to the bed and sat down. "Well, I think I understand you a bit. I just didn't want you lonely" she was a bit tense, and I knew exactly what she was thinking. "I know. But I'm fine now, jes. Honestly. I've been fine" I hugged her, making sure she believed I was alright, although I knew I wasn't.