mamaoo oneshots

#how long? (moonsun)

i was originally planning for this to be an angst but im so sorry i do not have the heart to write such thing so it'll just be a kinda sad
tw: mention of self harm and yknow all that stuff
also this is a different au, both of them are just normal people but byulyi has family problems and yongsun is just yknow so yea
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"yknow i really wanna go to this place with you..."

yongsun trailed off as she saw that her girlfriend had fallen asleep on her. she chuckled as she tucked a few peices of brown hair behind the sleeping hamsters ear.
byulyi hadn't been getting too much sleep and had been overworking herself these past few days and yongsun had a few speculations but she wasn't sure. she sighed as she wiggled out of byulyis embrace, being careful not to wake her up and changed into her pyjama's grabbing a set for her girlfriend.
she lightly tapped her awake as she chuckled at how cute byulyi was waking up, eyes barely open.

"cmon pyjamas."

byulyi deicided to be childish and reached her hands out to yongsun

"change me"

the older just raised a brow but just complied
when she took off byulyis shirt she caught a glimpse of a few...red lines? on her arm..

"byul ah give me your hand."

"hm why-"
it hit her, she was so tired she forgot to hide them, she started panicking

"just give me your hand i want to see something."

"..hey i need to go the toilet for a sec he- ah!"

yongsun was quick to pull byul towards her as she grabbed her arm and turned it.

"moon byulyi, what is this?"

yongsun had started to tear up by this point

byulyi was feeling guilty, she was feeling terrible.
the past few months had been hard, she was dealing with some problems at home and she didn't want to consult yongsun knowing that she had problems of her own.. soon it got worse and she turned to self harm for relief, wasn't the first time, she had done this before but when she met yongsun much changed but she had recently gotten back into the habit...

"im sorry.. i was just having a hard time..."

"how long..."

"..two months..."

"w-why didn't you tell me? I'm always here to listen byul ah, you always talked with me when you had problems, i always helped you.. so why didn't you tell me this time, what changed....?"

tears were flowing down the olders face at this point and she had no intention of stopping them, she always trusted byul to talk with her and it pained her to know that her lover had gotten back into her old habits that she had tried so hard to stop

"...well you were busy with work and you seemed really stressed these past few weeks so I decided not to tell you..."

this hit yongsun hard... she was so engrossed in her work that she hadn't noticed that her girlfriend needed help
byul, who also had tears flowing down her face knew exactly what yongsun was thinking and hugged her

"y-yong its not your fault i just decided not to add on to your stress it was my own decision...please, dont blame yourself..."

by now byulyi was also crying

"...p-please byul ah no matter how busy or stressed i am, you know that you're my first prority, tell me...tell me anything you're worried about, anything thats on your mind...just.. tell me, talk to me, I'll help you, I'll make time for you, so please...just dont harm yourself anymore, it pains me to know i didn't do anything when i could have so please just talk to me..."

small sobs were the only thing that was heard in the room, byulyi hugged yongsun tightly repeatly saying sorry while crying onto her shoulder
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byulyi fell asleep after a while considering that she was quite tired and crying had really drained the last amount of energy she had left

"...please don't do anything to yourself....i love you."
yongsun whispered as she softly kissed byulyis forhead and soon fell asleep as well

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im sorry ;-;