yours Selfishly

ch -4

Turns out it isn't as easy as I thought to get another member in the club, Everybody was on either sports club or information technology which is a cheap excuse to play Candy crush in computer.
Neither Darsh nor Daksha are taking this seriously , I wouldn't have bothered to make an effort , if I hadn't get myself into this.
I stared at the small card , I made , I wouldn't have needed to do anything if Aroshi was still here . The longing started again. The hope of her to come back . I wished the feeling  would stop as suddenly  it came , but more than that , I wished  that ,someday I would wake up to find this was all a nightmare.
" Can I join the club?" Someone said making me snap out of my thoughts, I turned to see sidhaarth."
" Are you sure , I mean the club isn't the official one ," I don't want him to later complain about being stuck at something boring."
He smiled as he fiddled with the card 
" That's even better , who likes teachers bossing you around ."
"Okay you're in " I grinned , it felt like a huge burden has been lifted From me.
I glanced back at him , we were silent for too long ,but it seemed like I was the only one feeling uncomfortable , he was spacing out looking at something downwards.
So I got up , " I am going to the washroom be at the library at 5th period ." He nodded still not looking up .
Daksha was applying lipgloss by the wash basin. If it was any other day she would have ignored me but not today . I was greeted with a smile . "Have you found anyone ?"
"Yeah , Siddharth Arora."
" The one everyone's been talking about?"  How many Siddharth Arora are there in school , I wonder.
I nodded ,  leaning into another basin.
It was how suddenly they had started talking to me that was making me uneasy , I can never get used to it.

Daksha seemed to see through my  effort of keeping a straight face "you don't know do you" her serious tone made me listen intendly , " I wouldn't say the reason , but I have nothing against you , because I know,but Darsh had a lot of things against you."

" If you really wanted to confess why only say half huh?"her innocent face was pissing me even more. Nothing was worth mending this selfish friendship , so I decided to not ask anymore.
.I was sitting at the library with him and Daksha waiting for our new member to come. Darsh's  hard stares was making it impossible for me to read .
"So whose joining our club" the rough voice confirming he was asking to me.
When I didn't answer Daksha did "Sidhaarth Arora"
I watched Darsh expression change "oh no." He looked at me " let's grab some books together."