KAHWIN

What's on My Mind

12/6/2021

Tonight I lay down by myself thinking.

Are stupid or what??

Get married?

Kau seriously nak kahwin sangat?

Okay look! I'll break down one by one why you should think this through betul2.

First, u think marrying is just about sleeping together and having sex?? No! God no! It's a fucking commitment!

Means no more everything that u ever had now. Let say Kalau kau kahwin sekarang, where will you live?? Still with your mom? What a shame? U wanna buy new house new car?? Kau saving pun x de weyh!!! U got nothing in your own pocket!! Blum fikir kalau kau dah boleh buat anak halal! Mana kau nak tanggung lagi?? Dgn laki bini nafsu kudanya...

Financially, u are not stable AT ALL to get married!!!

Second!!! You think u deserve to get married n be happy??? With that kind of sins you have done???! Weyh pasal agama satu haram kau tak buat....kau mungkin tahu tapi kau TAK BUAT!!! Kau tak ikot!! Kau ingat layak ke Allah nak bagi kau "owh happy ever after ending" no way man... it's either kau susah nak kahwin or kau kahwin nanti susah. That's all. Sebab marriage kau tak ade agama....look at yourself, look at him....really???

It's not gonna be easy. You know it. Just try to make it worth it. Marriage is not just about sleeping together. It's commitment and every fuxking co-ship.

Means no more laying around all alone. No more enjoying self and whatever the fxck u wanna do. You gotta obey whatever the hell the man said to u. The man itself which you knew stuck in the same situation with you. You gotta live your life first before u ever think to start "something new". You haven't even graduate and you are working a worthless job. Ape yang kau fikir?? Kahwin? Just to make it halal? Seriously? Yang sbelum ni kau had sex all the time tak de pulak kau pikir halal haram!!!

And guess what???!!! You only knew him for about 7 month???? You gonna marry someone who u just knew for 7 month?? ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? orang lain amik masa bertahun nk kenal pasangan....I get it that you are in love but come on seriously, are you that desperate?? 7 bulan kenal and you already wanna marry him. Sumpah kalau aku yg dulu dengar ni smua, komfem aku terus judge and say TAK MAU KAHWIN. Tak sangka kan...orang macam aku yang dulu selalu kata nk kahwin lambt eventually dah gatai sangta nak kahwin!!!!

Okay... I mean...I get it...aku tak tahu semua tu datang dari HATI atau OTAK. I always had an argument between this two. Sampai aku tak tahu yang mana satu kata hati aku. Well aku balas balik whatever the hell my heart or brain was saying/thinking just now. Well eventually ramai jugak yang kata...Tak kan la nak tunggu smua tu as in (tunggu kaya raya senang lenang gila2) baruu....nak kahwin...memabg lambat lah kalau macam tu....and aku jugak yg selalu takut jadi anak dara tua...btw next year aku da 25... I'm not that young anymore. Mak and abang aku pun kahwin umur 20....phew...yass kawan2 aku pun banyak sgt yg dah kahwin, niza, akmal, zul, aqila, and iman, sha dah ada anak dah pun...kau??? Kau bila lagi??

Cakap pasal agama...aku kenal dua2 aku ngn dia sama2 nak ubah dan selalu ada niat nak ke arah yang baik...sama2 nak baiki and kita sama2 mengaku yang sama2 kurang dari segi agama ni....tak  bermaksud kau boleh hukum diri kau untuk tak kahwin demi agama....it's a journey. You have to learn and walk through it to gain it. So aku rasa both of us tak de masalah sebab basic kami ada and inshallah kuat.

Bout 7 month of knowing....ade org kahwin x kenal pasangn pun... that's the worst. Kak long said kenal suami 3 bulan je lps tu kahwin. And banyak lagi cerita kahwin kenal tak lama ni, kekal je...and yg kenal lama2 10/15 tahun boleh break....and ada juga yg memang bertahun tahun bercinta and kahwin and bahagia. I can't deny that one. So kat sini nak cakap...DURATION DOESN'T MATTER!!!! it can be as short as possible or as long as possible. But ONCE you find your true love/ soul mate/ significant other or whatever the hell u wanna call it....you will be stuck forever with him!!!!

So never be worried about it.