Soul || UNFINISHED

12: Embraces and Resemblances

“Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.” – Oscar Wilde

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Tzuyu's P.O.V.

I wake up at the sight of Taehyung's ethereal face near mine. It stopped. The world stopped. And for that long while, I just stared at his face. Admiring his beauty.

He looks too beautiful. And this guy's my future murderer?

I laugh at thought of that. A laugh not in an amused matter but in a sarcastic tone. Why does he have to be the one to end my life?

It's not like I care, I couldn't care less. But still, I thought I'll be the one to end my own life. I hate having someone to kill me, it doesn't bring my death any peace.

I hate myself more than anyone could. That's the reason, if anyone might ask. It feels better ruining the lives of our enemies rather than someone else ruining their lives, right? Do you get it now?

But I have tried doing it before, it's way harder than I thought it would be. I realized I don't want to die, I just want to disappear from this world. I want to live, but not here. Somewhere else, in a different universe maybe. Or I can live here too, in different circumstances.

Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.

But life is... It only happens once. Death is peaceful but life is harder. If it was both switched, life would be more interesting than death. But as I said, you only live once. And I want to live. Just not here, and I'm afraid, when I die, I won't get to at least experience life again.

And for the same reason as mine, Taehyung had to kill me. If he fails, his life would be taken away from him. And he doesn't want that, but he wishes for the same peaceful life I want to have.

However, I wonder how he'll end my life. We'll he be as brutal as he is at night? Or will he end it in a peaceful way? Poison me or make me overdose in pills, something of lesser pain than gunshots or knife stabs.

That's my last wish Taehyung...

And after those series of thoughts, I'm back into staring at him again. Just letting his hands around my waist, as I rest my head uncomfortably on the cold floor.

When I reincarnate, if I ever will, I wish to see a face that's as pretty as his.

I chuckled. How silly, do I still have to, if I'm seeing it right it front of me right now?

Did I just say that? Thump, thump, thump, my heart goes without realizing it. Now I do. Did my heart just do that?

I must be insane. Tzuyu, stop it, stop that.

And as I keep trying to stop my heart going crazy, it only worsened. It beats faster and louder, as if my heart's about to explode. My eyes accidentally land back on his face, and I turn away, face heating up in crimson.

I really am going insane.

All of a sudden Taehyung's eyes open and he sits up, only to look at me. I was able to pretend to be asleep right away, an eye peeking at him.

He lays back at my side, and smiles with tears starting to form on his eyes.

A memory flashes through my mind, reminding me of last night's events. This is so much different from how he was yesterday, the aggressive, apathetic, brutal Taehyung at night.