TW: thoughts of harming oneself, manipulation, and other things. if any of this may trigger you, please dont read this.
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'you make me want to kill myself'
'where is this coming from? all im doing is asking you why you did something harmful to me?'
'i dont understand why its a problem.'
'it is a problem, and you should know that. it's entirely a problem. you know i have anxiety, and that i was going through a hard time. and you knew i was alone. and instead of talking to me, you refused to and lied straight to my face and spouted excuses as to why.'
'i wasn't in the right mindset, i wasnt thinking, ok?'
'but you were. ive tried to help you through a lot of things, and when i go through something i get ghosted.'
'i spoke to you for a while, didnt i?'
'you spoke to me 1/9 of the time. and part of the time you spoke to me, it was so i could fix something you broke within minutes of me giving it to you.'
'whatever.'
i sat my phone down, and plugged in the charger. i was definitely crying, i could feel the heat on my cheeks. i've put so much of their stuff away, pretending it was fine and it doesnt matter. being racist in the past, saying the n and f slur, so much stuff. and i feel bad that i finally drew the line after it started affecting me. but im done with it.
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'hey! why arent you talking to me anymore? i have no one to talk to :('
'i dont care if you have no one to talk to. you didnt want to talk to me when i had no one to talk to. and you know very well why im not talking to you.'
'?'
'stop talking to me.'
'Ok.'
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'is *** mad?'
'yes. maybe even more mad than me.'
'why?'
'same reason im mad'
'when will you be not mad?'
'i dont know. maybe next year, maybe never.'
'ok.'
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'hey, *** i got a rdr2 map.'
'i dont care?'
'ok. well all of my past progress was deleted.'
'ok? i hope it deletes it again?'
'ok- anyway when will you stop being mad?'
'when you stop being a brat.'
'how do i do that?'
'by not being a brat.'
'but how do i do that?'
'figure it out.'
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a/n
i know that this seems like direct texts, which its some i remember. but of course they're altered a bit. and if you know you're the person im referring to, dont say 'thats not what i said' or 'thats not what you said' because i know. im not reading the texts right now. im just taking what i remember.
of course i didnt put any names, so theres that.
i know it may be confusing, but the 'narrator' and '***' is in italics. just to be clear. the first two conversations were 'narrator' and 'unnamed person' and the very last conversation right about the a/n was a conversation between '***' and 'unnamed person'
