Angel

1

" Renèe, I took the pregnancy test and the results were definitely positive. Nobody else knows yet, not even my parents but, I already know that they would be disappointed.  " I sighed.

" Don't stress yourself out, I'm sure that it is probably false. But, if you need for me to come with you to the doctor. I wouldn't mind since, I know you probably don't want to go alone. " She suggested.

Suddenly, I hear the doorbell and peaked out of my bedroom window. It was my boyfriend, Eric. He knew my parents were currently out of town and wouldn't be back for another two weeks. He was one of the last person that I actually wanted to see right now and it wasn't helping that my anxiety was already at an all time high and this new medication I was under was not providing any relief. 

" Um, I have to go downstairs real quick. I'll have to call you back later, are you staying up past 10? " I asked.

" Yeah, just call me back when you're free. I don't go to bed until 12:30. Bye, Angie. " She responded.

" Okay, bye. " I said.

I went to unlock the door acting like what happened earlier wasn't even on my mind.

" Make sure you take off your shoes before you come in and I'll be in the kitchen fixing us something to drink. Please, lock the door behind you. " I kissed him before going off to pour us kool-aid.

Eric sat down on the conch while turning on the television flipping through the channels. Before turning it off and getting up to sneak up behind Angel with his arms around her waist.

" Shit, you almost made me waste this all over the floor. Eric, you play too damn much. " I frowned.

" My bad. It's just that you seem like something is bothering you. Do you want to talk about it now? " He asked.

" I really don't feel like talking about it right now. " I replied.

" I'm sorry, if I had put you in a bad mood earlier. I had just wanted to do something to cheer you up. " He explained.

" You didn't make me upset, I've just been thinking lately. " I said.

" If it isn't anything I've done, then what is it then? " He asked me.

" I just found out that I am pregnant. Before, you came over me and Renèe were discussing what should I do. " I replied.

" What do you mean by you're wondering what you should do? You're not going to get an abortion! " He yelled.

" I'm only seventeen! I'm not ready for
all of this, I don't even have a job! " I responded.

" That doesn't give a right to just make decisions without me! You're selfish just like your damn mother! " He said.

I ran upstairs to my bedroom while, Eric followed behind me. I closed the door behind me, climbing in my bed with tears in my eyes. I heard the door opening and suddenly felt him getting into my bed. Pulling me closer to him.

" Please, just leave. I didn't even want to bring it up because, I knew it would make us argue. That's all we ever do anymore, I don't want to bring a child into an toxic environment. " I cried out.

" Angel, I'm sorry about what happened earlier. But, I just don't agree with you having an abortion. It's just as much my decision as it is yours. I love you and as long as I'm here, I'm going to be there for you and the baby. " He said.

" I love you too. Oh my god! I need you to drive me to the hospital, I think I am having the baby now. " I said, trying not to make things worse.

I felt a couple of contractions and then, wet myself uncontrollably. Eric came over to me, trying to calm me down and to keep me from having an panic attack. He helped me get into the car and got in on his side, driving to the hospital.

" Angie, just breathe and squeeze my hand when another one come. " He said.

I have never felt this type of pain in my life, What had made it worse was that I was if I was alone that I knew that the situation would've been worse than it already is. I laid further back into my seat trying to breathe closing my eyes as we went through the light trying to get to the hospital in time.

" Are we almost at the hospital yet? " I asked him.

" We're here. " He replied.

I didn't remember anything other than, the argument that me and Eric had. It was the next day and I started to get out of the hospital bed before one of the nurses came in.

" How are you feeling, Ms. Jackson? " She asked.

" Tired, have you seen my boyfriend? He couldn't come in with me because, he had fill out some paperwork. " I asked.

" Yes, He had left earlier this morning, probably around five this morning. Hopefully, you will feel better in a few days. Dr. Payne will be coming in shortly to talk more about what happened. " She replied.

" Okay. " I said.

The nurse closed the door behind her and no later than 10 minutes, I seen the doctor come in with a clipboard.

" Ms. Jackson, first of all I wanted to tell you that I am very sorry for your loss. " Dr Payne informed me.

" Excuse me? I am really lost right now. What do you mean by that? " I asked, confused about what was currently going on.

" Well, you've just recently experienced a miscarriage. The main thing that you will need to do is try to get plenty of rest for now.  " Dr. Payne responded.

I heard a knock at the door, hoping it wasn't my parents and just one of my friends.

" Hey girl, I heard what had happened yesterday. I tried to come earlier but, they was telling me about you wasn't accepting visitors, I guess because, it was really late. But, I was wondering to myself that if you couldn't see anyone then, why in the hell was Eric here? I thought y'all broke up. " Renèe asked.

" It's complicated. " I replied.

" I seen your parents downstairs, they're pissed off. " She said.

" I'm not surprised, I might not be starting my senior year at Compton High. I heard them talking about that if I mess up again, that I will have to move with my auntie in New York. So, we might not be seeing each other unless, it's for the holidays. " I explained.

" Damn. Well, just try and make the best of it. You never know who you might meet out there or what opportunities might come up. " She sighed.

" Don't be like that. I can send you letters, call you and when my auntie get her computer hooked up, we can just get on there and maybe play cards or message each other instead. " I said.

" Okay, but you better not forget about me with all these new friends you're about to make out there, you maybe even become famous and then, you'll never have to work paycheck to paycheck. " Renèe said.

" Girl, you're crazy. " I laughed.