My Mafia Jimin FF~..

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We were in the van....

I was sitting next to Soyeon, Soyeon sat next to Ara.

Jungkook was in front of me.

Taehyung was next to him.

Jimin was next to Taehyung.

All I was doing was staring out of the window.

Thinking how life would be now.

My eyes closed slowly then opened like I was tired.

It was the afternoon that's why.

The sun was setting...

The blue skies...

With no clouds just the beautiful orange sunset in front of me.

Just looking at it makes me want to live a peaceful life.

But all i'am in...

Is a trap...

I can't go anywhere after this.

Jimin would never let me go out after this.

I'm not saying I'm living a bad life with them.

It's just that...

I wish I was living so happily...

My dreams have just disappeared...

I have litrally nothing left.

I always wonder what would happen now.

What would the future leave me to.

I still question why Jimin...

Would just forgive me so quickly.

Dosen't he just hate me.

I'm not saying he should hate me.

But the things I have caused.

I tried to kill Jimin...

I tried to kill myself...

I hurt other people's feelings..

Because Kai still loves me apparently...

They are always in danger...

I always feel like there's no way out.

I just miss my parents...

I hope I see them...

Soon...

Maybe in dreams...

That would help.

I rub my hands together and sigh quietly...

" Y/N...you have a purple mark on your upper eye lid..."

Jungkook says normally...

I look at him...

I touch my eye lid.

I look at my forefinger but nothing was there.

I sigh.

It must've been the pain killers...

I didn't say anything.

It was silent...

I didn't wasn't to make eye contact with Jimin.

Even though he forgave me and told me let's not argue like this...

I just don't want to look at him.