diary of an emotionless wreck

Sometimes I feel lost in this world because I'm a simple girl devoid of feeling. I see the shows on TV talk about love, and no matter how much I wish that to be me I find myself incapable. Handicapped by my own mind, that refuses to feel the connection with another person. That doesn't make me worse for wear, simply more logical than emotional. I find myself surrounded in a room with thirty other people trying to get something from me, an emotion that they "know" is there but can't seem to see. What they fail to comprehend is that I have none, and yet they persit and they insist that I am just like them! So I fake it. I pretend to smile at jokes I don't find amusing. I go out on dates with boys I care nothing about. I cry at romance and death when it is appropriate and scream when I should be scared. But I find this charade suffocating, when I walk around masquerading as a normal person when I'm not. I'm not like you, and I never will be, I don't give a damn if Jimmy proposed to Becky in a five star resturant, and it doesn't bother me that John commited suicide because his wife left him. I will never understand why I should scream when a man flashes a knife at me, or why I should laugh when someone says a joke. So this is me... can you accept it?

yes i did write this myself it has traces of me and was inspired by my best friend no i'm not a girl but she is my expression you will see her in some of my other works