INSECURITY AWARENESS

Okay.

We all know about suicide awareness, sexual abuse awareness, and all of those.

But insecurity?

Not really.

On Wattpad, there are many books about girls and boys who are virtually flawless and yet believes they're ugly and stupid and that gets annoying. And for me, very triggering.

I'm a swimmer. Swimmers are technically supposed to be "tall, thin, and muscular." I fulfill one of the three- muscular. I am not tall- 5'5. I am not thin, I'm not obese, I'm somewhere in the middle, and even though I try to become thinner, I can't, because some people simply can't. In swimming, you see all those gorgeous tall girls who could be a model and a Nationals- level swimmer. 

I'm often looked at as the model of a straight-A nerd. I might be. But the thing that gets me is the fact that I don't have a swimmer's body, which leads me to believe I'll never get to the Olympics or the Nationals. And that cause me tons of insecurity. Other versions of this are when you see yourself as fat but really are thin, and things similar to that.

See, I'm no phycologist, but these are the effects of insecurity-

not eating: this one is huge. You might starve and have eating disorders and that's very VERY unhealthy.

low self-esteem: this one leads to depression

depression: depression is a main cause of suicide. The suicide prevention hotline is: 800-273-8255

Please give it a call if you or your friend/family member is considering suicide.

Also, being a part of the LGBTQ+ Community is a cause for insecurity. In this world, some people look down on being a part of that vibrant community. This could cause suicide.

When people realize they like someone of their sex, or realize they self-identify as someone of the opposite gender, or don't even identify as someone of the two genders, they become ashamed. Don't be ashamed AT ALL. Yes, people will dislike you, or hate you, or look down on you, but you are who you are, and they don't have a say in that.

And then, there's toxic relationships.

I have never been in a very long-term relationship, but in a toxic yet long-term relationship, you will be physically/mentally abused.

Mental abuse can include body shaming. Shaming for being "ugly". If your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife does that, break up IMMEDIANTLY. If you don't...

-Eating disorders

-Starvation

-Suicidal thoughts

-Suicide attempts

-Suicide

-Depression

And many other things.

Insecurity can indeed kill. Don't fall prey to it. If yiou do, please remember there will always be someone to help you. My PMS are open. There are dozens of hotlines and websites that can help you. Seek the company of loved ones.

Be careful, all.

xxx Bella