New Beginnings { A Jamie Dornan & Dakota Johnson Fanfic }

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As I spent the rest of my day, saddened I figured I'd just sleep.. yeah, I cried.. it was hard, Jamie and I have been through a lot.. he was and is a great guy to be around.. it pained me to see that he was gone, gone for good. I wish Amelia would of just, understood.. but, I guess that's life.. people come and go.. it was seven o'clock and I just decided to sleep until I got a call from Sam.. "hey I just heard what happened is everything alright?" She asked, concerned, concerned for the both of us.. "I guess you heard about Jamie." I said in the most depressing tone ever. "Yeah, I heard now we have to start from scratch and recast Christian.. you aren't quitting either, are you?" She asked me "no, no I'm not quitting, I'm dedicated.. but, just in case Jamie ever decides to sign back on.. could you, keep our old footage? Please?" "Of course Dakota, I already told him he's more than welcome to come back if he chooses to do so." "Thanks, Sam." I said with a light sniffle. "Anytime love, now get some rest, alright?" "Yeah, yeah I will.. Goodnight." I hung up & fell asleep, even though my head was awake, and well, wanting to think.. sadly, I just started staring at my ceiling, for hours.. recaping the entire thing, wondering what I could of done to help.. it sucked, working on Fifty Shades without Jamie just didn't feel right.. it didn't feel like it was Fifty Shades.. it felt like some other movie now.. I was no longer excited to work on it.. but, you gotta do what you gotta do.. so, I guess I just have too.. suck it up? I don't know.. I kind of just, want this to be a nightmare.. a really terrible nightmare that I can't wake up from. But.. that isn't reality.. this is reality.. Jamie was no longer the Christian to my Ana.. and I had to forget about it, forget about him.. I didn't want too.. but, I needed too.. I needed to get my head into the movie.. at least until it's over. I layed in bed, still thinking, trying to put images in my head on what would the Fifty Shades of Grey phenomenon would be without Jamie.. and to be honest? all I could see was dissapoint ment.. this night, this mindset.. I didn't like it, nor did I want to think about it! but, I can't be selfish.. It was Jamie's choice and if I were in his place I probably would of done the same thing.. would I have liked it? no. But, you always put family first before anything.. and for that.. I will always respect Jamie. Even if I meant he and I could no longer be friends, he's still is my friend at heart, and I will always be there to support him.. Even if it meant doing it from afar. Damn, why does this depress me so much? hell, why did Jamie have to leave? why couldn't he have comprimised with her? all these thoughts kept running through my Brain until I finally told myself to shut up and go to sleep.. which, after three hours of contemplation.. I finally slept..