Letters to the bully across the street

Letter thirty seven

Dear bully,

She was ... Pregnant. But..but...but... Was all I could say. That's why she ended her life? Oh my. I just wanted to die right there and then. I wants to kill whoever killed my baby with regret.

I drove home. As I was about to lay in my bed I found a note. For me and my husband and her loving brother and father. It said,

Dear family,

I just wanted to say I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I did that. I always thought to myself that suicide was dumb and it was selfish. To family and friends. But I realized that was my only way out. My never cut myself but I killed myself. I know it doesn't make sense because it's hard for you to understand that you couldn't save your little girl. But I had to. I was running away from the fact that I will never be perfect and that my dad wasn't my dad. That he used my mom. I had so much anger with him. It wasn't any of your guys fault. As I now realize that. You just all made decisions that helped me or our family. As I am doing now. I am coming to tell you that my boyfriend told me he loved me no matter if I wasn't perfect or not. That I was beautiful. And he loved me more than anything. As so I thought. But he made me think I was worth it. So gave myself to him. And I went to school and tried to live a normal life. And when I found out I was pregnant I was so excited. I knew we could be together forever. But when I told him he called me so many names, he called me worthless like it says so on my arm. And I believed him. And I knew you would never allow me with a baby in the house. And i knew he didn't love me. So I spared me the rejection and I'm leaving. I'm sorry I killed my baby I just thought it would mess up every chance with life I had. And I couldn't give it the life I had. Or that couldn't let it live in a world so evil and full of rejection. So I just want to say I love you all. And I'm sorry little bro. I loved you more than anything. And remember it was never your falut, and i was going to live just for you but I couldn't drag you down with all my mistakes. But remember sissy will always love you.

Love always and forever, Faith

With that I closed my eyes and look a few extra pills knowing I should've finished this a long time ago. And I couldn't live with knowing she was gone and it was all because of me.

Dear family,
So as the note says I love you all my dear family and it isn't your fault I just couldn't live with all my troubles. I hope my boy grows up like his father. And I love him to THE MOOON AND BACK. I'm sorry my baby boy.

Love you all to the moon and back, Me

I write this down on the same note and with that I left to see my baby girl.