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(An): this one has strong angst in it I am so sorry-

⚠️ HEAVY MENTIONS OF SUICIDE AND SELF HARM⚠️

(Kiyotaka Ishimaru's P.O.V.)

I sat on the roof top of my apartment building, I look down and shiver at the thought of ending it all right here.

I knew I wasnt going too, not yet anyways.

I picked up my phone and called my only friend, Mondo Owada, "Mondo I need help".

"What do you mean Taka?" His soft voice made me smile, I couldnt do it, I couldnt bare to see him upset.

"Come to the rooftop of my apartment okay?" He didnt ask any questions, "I'll be there in about ten k?" "Yeah that's okay.." I looked at my feel which were dangling off of the rooftop.

I wanted Mondo here so bad, I knew he would hold me and laugh with me, he would always do that cute little giggle when ever i would scold him, I felt tears running down my cheeks as I thought about him.

I could hear someones voice but I couldnt make out who it was, I was still day dreaming, "yo Taka, you good?" I felt a warm hand on top of mine.

I looked beside me to see Mondo looking at me with a worried look on his face, I hugged him tightly and burries my face into his chest.

He hugged back tighter and whispered to me, "hey, you okay Taka..?" I nodded and burried my face more.

He rubbed my back laying his head on mine, I smiled.

I released from the hug, "Mondo I have a question" he nodded his head, "do you ever have a thought involving  yourself?" "What do you mean by that?", he had that same worried expression as before, sad but comforting.

"Bad thoughts, like..um hurting yourself" his face turned sour, "yeah sometimes..why are you having those thoughts Taka?" I nodded slowly and looked back at my feet which were still dangling off of the rooftop.

I could feel Mondos sadness all around me, I looked at him, tears were running down his face, he wasnt making any noise, he was covering his mouth with his hands.

I hugged him, "Mondo..I would never actually do it I promise, but I have been doing something else to get my mind off of the thoughts."

He just hugged me tightly crying into my shoulder, "M-mondo?" He looked up, his eyeliner was running down his cheeks, almost like in a pattern, left right left right left right, I stared at his eyes, left right left right.

He looked confused, I guess I was saying it out loud, I was still zoned out, I looked at my wrists, "left, right, left, right" I traced the scars over top of my uniform.

"Taka" I looked up at him, "wha..were you saying something" I said looked up at him again, he wiped his tears off of his cheeks, too bad i wanted to do that.

He held my hands, "Taka, what have you been doing" I looked at him, I knew if I told him he would be broken but if I didnt, he would still be upset with me.

"I...uh.." i looked down, "cutting" I froze and couldnt move, what would he say..? Will he think I'm a freak..? "Can I see..?" I took a deep breath and nodded, I rolled up my sleeves showing the scars on my wrists, i sat there, i felt tears run down my face.

I stared at them, Mondo thinks I'm a freak now doesnt he, that's why hes not saying anything, all I am is a stupid genius with no life.

"Your scars are beautiful."

I looked at him, "what..?" "Your fighting scars, they are beautiful" he smiled a bit and lifted up his sleeve.

"Y-you do it too?" he shook his head, "I used to, I stopped about a year ago when I met you" I wiped my tears, really? I thought, because of me? He stopped because of me? "I.." I didbt know what to say but then he hugged me, i just melted into the hug.

I closed my eyes, i felt happy again.

"I know what it feels like to have no one" i nodded in response, "I'll help you through every step of the way okay?" "Thank you.." I looked up at him.

He smiled and kissed me, his lips were so warm, I never wanted it to stop.

He pulled away,which made me frown, "I'm so sorry I thought you wanted it I don't know what I wa-" I kissed him back, he wrapped his arms around me and melted into the kiss.

I finally felt at home, like I belonged, and that someone loved me.

Mondo pulled away from the kiss and picked me up, "let go to your apartment" I nodded and let him carry me inside.

He put me down as I stumbled to take my shoes off, "here" he held onto me as I kicked my shoes off, he smiled and carried me onto my bed.

"Get into comfy clothes okay?" I nodded as he went into the bathroom, I put on a hoodie and some shorts then sat back on the bed waiting for him.

Mondo walked out of the bathroom in a low messy bun leaving no hair in his face, he looked so hot I'm not even joking.

"Wanna watch a movie?" I nodded as he picked me up, hes so warm, I smiled laying my head on his chest.

He laid me down as I rested my head on the arm rest of the couch, he crawled in between my legs and laid his head on my chest.

"M-mondo?" I said softly, "mhm?" I smiled at his muffled response as he turned on the TV, "nothing" I said relaxing into the couch.

.          .          .

What? I woke up sweating, it was a dream? No..was it? I looked around to see no one.

"Hes dead Kiyotaka." Yasuhiro was putting a cold ice pack on my face, "but.." "you passed out after his execution dude, you were out cold for an hour."

Tears ran down my face, "but he was right there, I promise, this all a dream! He was right there Yasuhiro!" He just looked at me and shook his head, I knew he was right, but I didnt want to believe it.

I laid there, defeated, my only friend died, I had no one else left.

(An): DONT MIND THE SPELLING MISTAKES I READ THROUGH IT AND COULDNT FIND ANY SO-

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