I finally got to cj's. We went to bed right away. Next day we went to school like always. I hate school. I can never just be myself because i would get even more bullied. As i walked in the popular girl emma walks up to me and says "Hey brandi! I love your shirt! Wanna come sit at our lunch table today? You have to show my friends your shirt! Their gonna love it!" She says kindly. "Um sure. Okay." I say confused. So cj usually hangs out with the some what cool girls so she knows everything going on in popular girl life. I just usually walk around by myself.
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At lunch...
"Oh! There you are! Here i saved your spot!" Emma says sitting me right next to hannah. "Thanks." I say awkwardly. "So brandi! Do you like spaghetti?" She asked. "I guess. Why?" I say confused. She then throws her spaghetti all over my shirt and hannah comes up behind me and dumps it on my head with her milk. I start crying. Cj probably knew and she didnt tell me. Wow. Some friend. I ran to the bathroom. When i get in there cj walks in too. "Here. Let me help you." She says calmly. "NO! Get away from me! You probably knew about this but didnt tell me! Ju-just go!!" I scream as i start crying. I ran out of the school all the way to my moms old favorite spot she used to go when she was sad. (My mom died from a heart wttack my dad gave her) "Mom, im sorry. Im sorry for dad. Im sorry for not being a perfect daughter. Im sorry for your death. Im just sorry for everything." I say as i start crying even harder. "I wish you were here. I miss you. Please send an angel to help me. Or a friend. I would really like one. I wish that someone liked me. I hate myself. Im sorry im never gonna grow up to be that perfect daughter you want me to be but i hope you can forgive me. I love you. Tomorrows mothers day. I'll come visit your grave." I say crying so hard its hard to breathe. Well i found out hannah followed me and took a video of me and said im talking to myself making the situation worse. I went home to my dad. He beat me hard this time. But im used to the pain.
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