Everyday i come home "stressed", i am so tired that is feels like i am carrying weights on my back. Most days i come home and go straight to bed to get some rest. But i rarely ever fall asleep because of all the thinking my brain has to do when i am tired and trying to nap. I am usually home alone afterschool. What if someone breaks into the house when i am sleeping? What if there is already someone inside? Did i lock all the doors? What about the windows? Dad says it's good to distract yourself from these negative thoughts my doing something else. So instead of sleeping i end up watching tv.
Everyone tells me that i am a lazy person, And i truely belive that. But its not my fault that i have to be pushed into the shower. The shower is ultimate place for scary thoughts. Fisrt of all there is that sense of protection; What if someone walks into the bathroom while i am in the shower? Then there is the spark of energy you get when you turn on the shower, which makes you feel like singing and dancing. Then there are those crazy fantasies you make up when you are in the shower. " There is someone in the house attacking mom and dad, and i have to go out there with my ninja moves to save them."
Everyday i wait for the perfect time, 5 p.m., to start my homework. But let's just say i actually start doing my work at 7 p.m., what do i do for 2 hours? I struggle and complain. It usually sarts off by staring at my work, OMG? Really, we never even learned this? Is he okay, how can he expect us to do this? Then it gets worse, that's when i hate on my teachers, She just thinks everyone is like her stupid stuckup student? He literally teaches us nothing, and gives us every single page from the textbook as homework?Then it becomes nonsense, What is the meaning of going to school? Mom has an answer for everything " One of life's most painful moments come when we have to admit we did not do our homework, that we are not prepared. So do your homework."
