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TW: MENTIONS OF SEXUAL ASSULT/RAPE, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS (OD'S AND CUTTING), AND KNIVES

Alyssah's POV:

I woke up to the scent of cigarettes

Great, I'm back in this shithole again..

I walked into my bathroom and stared at myself.

Just great.

After staring at myself for a good few minutes, i got ready.

I brushed out my hair before changing into some baggy clothes.

I grabbed my bag and left the house.

Mum isn't as loving as she is in my dr, though i wish she was.

~

I walked into class, not making eye contact with anyone.

"Hood down, Alyssah" the teacher called

I didn't put my hood down.

"Woah, sevens a bad girl now" Jackson taunted.

I ignored him, not feeding into his taunting.

"Aw, don't ignore me now" he whispered behind me.

I ignored him again and went to my desk.

Before i could sit down, he pulled me and turned me around.

If this were in my dr, id get butterflies, but right now, the feeling right now makes me feel like i wanna vomit.

He pulled my chin up with his finger, making me stare at him.

"Why was poor Alyssah crying? Surely she has nothing to cry about,"

Yeah you say that as if you know what happens in my life.

"Right?"

"Right" i add on sarcastically.

"Oh so she talks now?" he replys

"No i talk, just not to you." i shoot back.

Before i'm able to fully turn around, he forcefully grabs my chin and forces me to stare at him.

Tears prickle at the corner of my eyes, but i refuse to let them fall.

"Don't you dare, speak to me like that. Ever." he spat.

"Do you want what happened that one night to happen again?" he asked

I shook my head no.

"Use your words, Alyssah" he taunted

"No"

"I said words right? Not just one word."

"No, i don't want that night to happen again." i whispered.

"Good" he spat.

I sat down at my desk.

I wanna go back home

I hate it here. I hate everything and everyone here. I hate how vulnerable i am. I hate how sensitive i am. I hate everything about myself.

~

Third Person POV:

The entire class period, Alyssah kept her head down.

Multiple thoughts roamed around her head. She was letting him get to her.

At first, Jackson thought Alyssah was the most beautiful person on this planet, and soon enough, he was falling for her.

All the time, Alyssah always had headphones on, shutting everyone out.